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  1. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    girl popcorn has carbs No I don't want an expanation even. I just want to know that whatever is happening it's happening for the good of his kingdom, that my suffering is not futile. I don't need to be important or happy, I just want to be more than nothing to God.
  2. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    The book of Job has always been one of my favorites because I always thought I was miserable, and if I was, maybe it was for a reason. But honestly as I grew, I was like, why did God feel the need to tourture his child to prove something to Satan? But if you would like, please remind me of said...
  3. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    You may be happy you didn't do that, but it was my dream. I had an agenda and everything by the week for my future. I was going to garden, work on my passion projects, and have time to spend with my loved ones. I see what it is like to work 8 hours 5 days a week. You wake up, go to a job you...
  4. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    Sorry if it feels like I am being inconsistient. I am figuring out more about how I truly feel as the hours and days go by and replying with however I feel in the moment
  5. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I can't eat ice cream. I have PCOS, no sugar, doctors orders. Also I need to lose weight so no binging for me sadly. My mother hates me.. I don't want to kill myself because I was dumped by my ex, but because I lost the life I had always wanted and all I am left is with uncertainty and...
  6. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I'm sorry if I have frustrated or offended anyone. I don't want to be hateful. I am being a tad selfish shoving all my anger onto other people but I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this to my friends of course but I can't keep it inside. I wish I could talk to God. Everyone seems to...
  7. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I used to go to church but that's what I mean about the other people thing. Why must he work through other people? It seems like he does everything in a way that makes it easy to fake. I can't trust anyone but God will only talk to me through people. I did cry, a lot. But it just gets worse...
  8. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    How can I obey with no instructions? I don't have family I enjoy being around. but I am glad you do
  9. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I do believe in God (Jesus) . Or at least I did. I was saved at 12 after my first suicide attempt. I felt like He saved me, I read the full Bible, went to church and felt a real connection, but then I realized I only felt him when I was super sad, or at church where its their job to make you...
  10. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    but WHY does there have to be "something big". WHY there is no reason for God to act like my Aunt Anne and only call when someone is dying. He is supposed to be a friend!!! Why does him talking to me have to come will all these rules. He has all the time in the world. Why can't he say Hi?!? I...
  11. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    Honestly guys, I give up. Unless I find a good man to marry me in law school, before I get a job, I'm done. Unless God Himself tells me not to give up. But even then, if he is going to send me to Hell for not loving him enough anyway, why should I even live my life the way he wants? So far his...
  12. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I get you are being honest, but this doesn't make me feel better at all. You still have so much to worry about and your over twice my age? I'm going to have to be stressed, worried, and overworked all my life. I can't.
  13. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    Sorry this didn't end well and I wasn't the most receptive. I just feel hopeless now. There is nothing more for me, and God probably doesn't even exist. So what is wrong with ending it and being in silence or non existent, the way I wish I was. I wish I was never created, and why would God...
  14. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    The idea of me being 40, working full time, single, living alone. Makes me want to just end it now. I don't even want to try anymore. I'm just waiting to get a job so I can afford to buy a helium tank or a gun.
  15. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    No offense, I am in a really bad place, but genuinely that is my worst fear. I think if you are happy that is wonderful! Of course you should be happy. I just know I would not be. If that was my life by the time I was even 30, I would end it. I can't do that. I hate my life as is, I can't watch...
  16. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    But no one is telling me, why cant he appear to me like in the old testament. I don't want to be a prophet or a big important, favored figure, I just want one moment, just one. Maybe One every 10 years to be honest. Why not? It's not like he is busy. Why can't he talk to me normally. Like a real...
  17. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    God is pretty much hiding from me. I feel gaslighted and maipulated. Every good thing in my life is from God, but every bad thing isn't. Talking to me in a languge I don't understand on purpose just to say you are technically talking to me, is the same as silence. Why am I required to read a...
  18. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    Sorry this got a little dark. I just feel a lot of things everyone. I don't know if I will ever be happy.
  19. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    Honestly now I'm not even upset about losing the man, I plan to find another one. I'm upset about this sudden shift in lifestyle. I'm upset because part of me feels like God is telling me to get a job, the one thing I have never wanted to do. That may make me entitled but honestly I would rather...
  20. SadGotDumped

    Just got dumped

    I have asked for a passion, a carrer I want, I can't find one. There are some things I like. Video editing, flyer making, dancing, gardening, Spanish, swimming, but none of those are carrer paths that can pay well enough for me secure, and there is no point in going to law school and not having...