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    Romans 1

    Thank you. I just have such strong guilt and shame for what I all did. With that comes the rejection that I also feel. I've been accepted into a trauma clinic, the waiting time is 6 to 8 months, I hope I can hold on that long, oh Lord Jesus, please make me clean and shed all of this unbearable...
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    Romans 1

    I have been feeling unrighteous for all of the bad I have done in my life, and yes, I have walked away from God before, and because of that, I think He has said ok, go your own way, you are unrighteous and your punishment will come on judgement day. Maybe that's the black and white of the...
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    Romans 1

    Can someone help me out with these two verses? I got really scared after reading them, keeping the unrighteous under punishment until the judgement day. This really worries me. 9 then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from trials, and to keep the unrighteous under punishment until the...
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    Romans 1

    That was encouraging. The strong tablets have gotten me to feel better, we'll see how they work. I've been so down for such a long time and have beaten myself to a pulp over bad things that I have done. It made me very negative and extremely hard on myself, I have Borderline as well, so that...
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    Romans 1

    I just got finished with an appointment with my psychiatrist. I got one med increased and also got an anti depressant prescribed. In pretty bad shape right now, sorry to report.
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    Romans 1

    Perhaps I am just happy in some way with my misery. I need to grab onto those verses and the counsel here and not be indifferent. Right now, the inner child has come out with the Borderline feeling very abandoned and having a great need to be punished and disciplined. I'm on a waiting list...
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    Romans 1

    Today is an especially hard day, I am so ashamed and feel guilty for all rhe bad I have done in my life. I just don't want to be here any longer. I don't know what the Lord will do with me, I just so much believe that He has long given up on me, once knowing the faith and then turning from Him...
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    Romans 1

    I think I get it logically that if I am depraved and reprobate that I would not even think of God or much about Him. My problem with being a Borderliner with black and white thinking, all good, all bad, tends to make me think otherwise. I'm trying to grasp and catch hold of what many of you...
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    Romans 1

    Thank you. Yes, I believe that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior and I have accepted Him as that. I just struggle so badly and I feel that I just cannot go on at times. I never really had a father or mother figure growing up, so I had to basically learn right from wrong on my own...
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    Romans 1

    But isn't that what I did by choosing homosexuality, I was taught that it is a choice and that one is not born that way? I was raped at an early age by an older boy. My doctors have told me that this might have spurred the homosexuality. I have done some very very evil things in my life, but...
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    Romans 1

    Romans 1 teaches that God gives up men burning in their passion for one another to a depraved and reprobate mind. Does this mean God has given up on me as a homosexual, not currently practicing but did it a lot, to my own shame and great sorrow? I beg and beg for Him to take the gay away, He...
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    Looking for Bible study buddy(s)

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    Looking for Bible study buddy(s)

    I would really like to join you Jeremy!
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    Hello from Germany.