A new thought from a young soul.

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estelleified

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Hi. I'm jeanette. I just joined this chat thing, and I'm feeling compelled to ask for prayer. I'm not really into beating around the bush, plus I'm kinda nervous about sharing this, but here it goes: Almost two years ago I watched my mother die of a rare illness. I was only 17 at the time. I never really got a chance to graduate or move on to college the right way because she died two weeks before I graduated high school. She knew I got into college, we did the whole process together. I won't cliche it by saying she was my best friend, because she wasn't. She was my mommy. And I loved her dearly. Still do. I'm having a hard time letting go of what happened. Its been a while, but I'm still so angry at God and at everything. It's one thing to take her away when its her time, but why was I the only child out of four that watched her die? and because I am the youngest of four, she didn't make it to my graduation, my prom, my first day of college, my orientation, anything. I'm trying to move on, but I just can't. I fear that I am turning my back on God. So I am doing everything in my power not to. But it's just so easy sometimes. Yet so hard. I just need an outsiders opinion on what to do. Thanks so much.
 
pickles

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Hi Jennette, I lost my mom also. Not as young as you have but the pain of not having her in my life still lingers. She also died far too soon to a rare illness. The Anger you feel is ok. God does understand, it is also part of the greaving prosess.
Eventually you will reach the point of acceptance, but keep trusting in God Our father. He keeps all of his promises and will help you through this.
Often when the loss of my mom is very heavy I try to remember that for her now, there is no more pain. Just great love. I also know that she would not want me to give into the anger. But to always seek the Love of Jesus that she knew so well.
I will keep you in my daily prayers. I know how lonely it can be when you lose one so close to you.
Hugs and God bless, pickles
 
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Hi Jeanette, I do not know what you went through but I emphasize with you. I will pray for you too.
 
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estelleified said:
Hi. I'm jeanette. I just joined this chat thing, and I'm feeling compelled to ask for prayer. I'm not really into beating around the bush, plus I'm kinda nervous about sharing this, but here it goes: Almost two years ago I watched my mother die of a rare illness. I was only 17 at the time. I never really got a chance to graduate or move on to college the right way because she died two weeks before I graduated high school. She knew I got into college, we did the whole process together. I won't cliche it by saying she was my best friend, because she wasn't. She was my mommy. And I loved her dearly. Still do. I'm having a hard time letting go of what happened. Its been a while, but I'm still so angry at God and at everything. It's one thing to take her away when its her time, but why was I the only child out of four that watched her die? and because I am the youngest of four, she didn't make it to my graduation, my prom, my first day of college, my orientation, anything. I'm trying to move on, but I just can't. I fear that I am turning my back on God. So I am doing everything in my power not to. But it's just so easy sometimes. Yet so hard. I just need an outsiders opinion on what to do. Thanks so much.
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Father in the name of Jesus our Lord who came to earth to set all people free. I ask for Peace for Jeanette, in this, You are our Peace Lord Jesus in you we always have an answer to every need, no matter what it is. Give unto Jeanette the answers she needs and can embrace the Peace you give her. Amen.
 
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