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REDMama
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June 21, 2011 Curtis Bay, Maryland
I have lived my faith before an ungodly family, filled with hypocrisy, physical and verbal abuse because they are filled with hatred and anger for no human reason, but as strange human beings who like to inflict harm.
I have prayed, I have ran, I have talked to the police and other authorities. And the same cycle keeps being repeated over and over, meanwhile, the authorities and those who profess to know how to love, and love like Christ says, make fun of me, for being weak.
Well, my bible says that females are the weaker sex, and they are not to be mistreated. And yet, the God in the people in this area, are not taking my life seriously. I do not need to go around this over and over. They blame me for their behavior, like I can control a brute beast, a bad spirit, or someone who is unwilling to listen, and is a controller, and cannot even keep their own mind together.
I was healing, and then when I am healing, these abusers interrupt the process, using me as an experiment, rather than a precious female with a spirit and body, that is to be apprecaited, that may belong to a good man, a husband someday, and that will find the true God in others, to be around, beause I already know it inside me.
I know those with prayer power and strength are getting tired of this. God let's the evil survive, and takes the good from the earth, because they can't handle the pain. That is me.
I have had thoughts of drug addiction and just going out to do whatever I want, but I am too old for that now. I will suffer more than I am already.
Nothing in 32 years of being in this house, has softened or molded my mother and her husbands heart into being christlike parents, respecting marriage, for God's sake they divorced and lusted after one
another just to get married, and now I have to fight all this just to try and obey God's laws so that I will be blessed and the devil will not mess with me.
It hurts real bad, that my very own mother, has lived her 62 years on this earth, with no compassion or regard for other human lives, and mine in particular.
There is different between respect and honor, and not loving evil, which the bible tells us to hate evil, abhor it, and run from it.
But, I am stuck, they feel I owe them something, to sustain and make their lives right. I pray they find God for themselves, and that God does not use me to get them to wake up.
I did not ask, could not talk, nor was conscious when she decided to have sex, in a moment, and create me, and then ruin nearly the last 32 years of my life, for her sake, and evil, selfish wishes.
Please if you have heart, pray, and that the Lord will send deliverance into her life, that events and feelings will come to her to make her repent, and get help for her substance abuse problems, and anger issues, and wrongful treatment.
She asked the Lord for a daughter, and God gave it to her, but now He is taking it away, at my own knowledge, and my friends. God is not going to give her, what she does not deserve, nor know how to take care of!!!!!!!!
That is why she has never been trustworthy with me, and never if I am able, because of her abuse, never will be trusted with my child, or husband.
And there are many stories like this in the Christian community. A husband who sees the beauty of abused wife, and how after survival, the traits and qualities God can use for a glorifying life.
I am tired and weary, I live in one of the worst areas of the United States, not many true believing Christians, and it is saddening. Rape happens alot, all men think about is their physical desires, no real love, and I am designed for that, have had good christians minister to me on this, and mold me this way, you can't change everything about someone, God made us and some things can be changed and others cannot.
Thank you.
You prayers are appreciated if done in love, and I trust that God, whereever you are, will reward you for what you have done.
I agree in Jesus name.
Thank you good Lord, and even if to my death, which will be sad, no one may ever know what evil has been done, so what my life will then be lived in vain? It does not make sense.
I have lived my faith before an ungodly family, filled with hypocrisy, physical and verbal abuse because they are filled with hatred and anger for no human reason, but as strange human beings who like to inflict harm.
I have prayed, I have ran, I have talked to the police and other authorities. And the same cycle keeps being repeated over and over, meanwhile, the authorities and those who profess to know how to love, and love like Christ says, make fun of me, for being weak.
Well, my bible says that females are the weaker sex, and they are not to be mistreated. And yet, the God in the people in this area, are not taking my life seriously. I do not need to go around this over and over. They blame me for their behavior, like I can control a brute beast, a bad spirit, or someone who is unwilling to listen, and is a controller, and cannot even keep their own mind together.
I was healing, and then when I am healing, these abusers interrupt the process, using me as an experiment, rather than a precious female with a spirit and body, that is to be apprecaited, that may belong to a good man, a husband someday, and that will find the true God in others, to be around, beause I already know it inside me.
I know those with prayer power and strength are getting tired of this. God let's the evil survive, and takes the good from the earth, because they can't handle the pain. That is me.
I have had thoughts of drug addiction and just going out to do whatever I want, but I am too old for that now. I will suffer more than I am already.
Nothing in 32 years of being in this house, has softened or molded my mother and her husbands heart into being christlike parents, respecting marriage, for God's sake they divorced and lusted after one
another just to get married, and now I have to fight all this just to try and obey God's laws so that I will be blessed and the devil will not mess with me.
It hurts real bad, that my very own mother, has lived her 62 years on this earth, with no compassion or regard for other human lives, and mine in particular.
There is different between respect and honor, and not loving evil, which the bible tells us to hate evil, abhor it, and run from it.
But, I am stuck, they feel I owe them something, to sustain and make their lives right. I pray they find God for themselves, and that God does not use me to get them to wake up.
I did not ask, could not talk, nor was conscious when she decided to have sex, in a moment, and create me, and then ruin nearly the last 32 years of my life, for her sake, and evil, selfish wishes.
Please if you have heart, pray, and that the Lord will send deliverance into her life, that events and feelings will come to her to make her repent, and get help for her substance abuse problems, and anger issues, and wrongful treatment.
She asked the Lord for a daughter, and God gave it to her, but now He is taking it away, at my own knowledge, and my friends. God is not going to give her, what she does not deserve, nor know how to take care of!!!!!!!!
That is why she has never been trustworthy with me, and never if I am able, because of her abuse, never will be trusted with my child, or husband.
And there are many stories like this in the Christian community. A husband who sees the beauty of abused wife, and how after survival, the traits and qualities God can use for a glorifying life.
I am tired and weary, I live in one of the worst areas of the United States, not many true believing Christians, and it is saddening. Rape happens alot, all men think about is their physical desires, no real love, and I am designed for that, have had good christians minister to me on this, and mold me this way, you can't change everything about someone, God made us and some things can be changed and others cannot.
Thank you.
You prayers are appreciated if done in love, and I trust that God, whereever you are, will reward you for what you have done.
I agree in Jesus name.
Thank you good Lord, and even if to my death, which will be sad, no one may ever know what evil has been done, so what my life will then be lived in vain? It does not make sense.
