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Hi, I am new here. This is my first post. I'm not sure where to start, but I am feeling very heart broken. I am trying to do the right thing, to pray and trust God. But sometimes this situation is just too much for me.
I have been going out with a man now for over 4 years. He is an amazing person, he is very generous and kind and many other good qualities, it is hard to understand that he is not a christian. He helped me through probably one of the most difficult times of my life - so he is even more special to me. As our relationship went on, I started to heal and he started getting into a slump. Everything I tried to do to help him, or ways I tried to involve him in my life he just rejected - it really hurt. In other ways though, he showed amazing devoted love. We were living together and not married, and that is not right, I know. Moving out for me was to solve one of those reasons - which he also supported me with.
A few days after I moved out - he broke up with me. I am devastated.
I don't have any family left I can turn to - there has been a lot of death around me - so this relationship with him meant even more to me. So, I know I need to rely on God even more than others to be my family. His mom is an amazing prayer warrior and has been praying for us.
I feel so lost now. He is happy we are broken up. We still talk and he helps me with things and is kind to me.
Recently I have really started to draw close to God, and I hear He has a plan for my life. So far my life has been quite shocking, and I'm finding it so hard to accept that things can get better. How could this happen.
I spend my time crying and praying and just trying to be ok. My ex on the other hand is suddenly now motivated and happy and wanting to travel - all the things I wanted us to do when we were together, he is happy to do them on his own. I feel so cheated, lost and alone. He says that it is not me and I mustn't take it personally. I don't know how I cannot.
I don't know what to do anymore - even just to get one night's good sleep. Just to be ok. I want this pain to go away and be happy again. But more importantly, I don't want to lose this man from my life because of some stupid mistake I made. Is God calling him? Was I in the way? How can this person who means so much to me and says loves me so much be on such a mission to get away from me?
I have been going out with a man now for over 4 years. He is an amazing person, he is very generous and kind and many other good qualities, it is hard to understand that he is not a christian. He helped me through probably one of the most difficult times of my life - so he is even more special to me. As our relationship went on, I started to heal and he started getting into a slump. Everything I tried to do to help him, or ways I tried to involve him in my life he just rejected - it really hurt. In other ways though, he showed amazing devoted love. We were living together and not married, and that is not right, I know. Moving out for me was to solve one of those reasons - which he also supported me with.
A few days after I moved out - he broke up with me. I am devastated.
I don't have any family left I can turn to - there has been a lot of death around me - so this relationship with him meant even more to me. So, I know I need to rely on God even more than others to be my family. His mom is an amazing prayer warrior and has been praying for us.
I feel so lost now. He is happy we are broken up. We still talk and he helps me with things and is kind to me.
Recently I have really started to draw close to God, and I hear He has a plan for my life. So far my life has been quite shocking, and I'm finding it so hard to accept that things can get better. How could this happen.
I spend my time crying and praying and just trying to be ok. My ex on the other hand is suddenly now motivated and happy and wanting to travel - all the things I wanted us to do when we were together, he is happy to do them on his own. I feel so cheated, lost and alone. He says that it is not me and I mustn't take it personally. I don't know how I cannot.
I don't know what to do anymore - even just to get one night's good sleep. Just to be ok. I want this pain to go away and be happy again. But more importantly, I don't want to lose this man from my life because of some stupid mistake I made. Is God calling him? Was I in the way? How can this person who means so much to me and says loves me so much be on such a mission to get away from me?