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Hello everyone...
I hope you all safe and sound...
Well, I am actually trying my best to find my way through God's path. I find it hard 'cause I was born in a non christian country and my dad is non christian too, but my mom is. No one in my family was committed neither my dad nor my mom. And I've never thought of figuring out what's right or wrong, 'cause life in such a non christian country, non committed family, and half christian half non, all that made it so hard and confusing.
Later, which is before 4 or 5 years, my mom started to look here and there, what is really christianity, what does the bible say, and how to commit, that was through christian TV shows. After a period, she realized that she was lost and gradually held onto christianity. Later she started telling us what she knows, stories and bible verses and so on. I realized then that Jesus Christ is the saviour, and that I have to build my faith in him. I am still struggling 'cause really am in a hard situation.
What makes me really sad and scared, is that I've done many mistakes in my life. I had several relationships and you know how it goes when you are in a relationship. I was so stupid and out of my mind. I swear when I remember what I used to do, I feel like those days don't even exist! It really feels like if I was the person I am now, I would never do such things. I also didn't have anyone who can guide me. I am the type who keeps everything to myself, I don't tell anybody 'cause I don't trust no one...
Though I've changed a lot! I feel so depressed because of my past. I feel like, I am not sure if God will forgive me, or already forgiven me 'cause I am a repentant. How will I know if he already forgiven me?
My conscience is torturing me, sometimes I feel like I can't breathe...
And I am wondering if any of you have been through relationships and went deeper and then realized that it's wrong to go deeper, what I mean is sexual stuff and everything should be with God's limits.. If anyone can share me their stories.
Finally, my questions are:
If I am a real repentant, does God really forgive me for all what I did no matter what my mistakes were? How will I feel his forgiveness and free my conscience?
Do I have to tell anybody like my sister about my past or just it's okay to forget it all and move on?
How can I raise my christianity and from where shall I start?
How do a good relationship with the opposite gender should be? How can I make sure it goes within God's limits?
I need your advices people. I would be more than thankful...
Waiting for replies...
God bless you all...
I hope you all safe and sound...
Well, I am actually trying my best to find my way through God's path. I find it hard 'cause I was born in a non christian country and my dad is non christian too, but my mom is. No one in my family was committed neither my dad nor my mom. And I've never thought of figuring out what's right or wrong, 'cause life in such a non christian country, non committed family, and half christian half non, all that made it so hard and confusing.
Later, which is before 4 or 5 years, my mom started to look here and there, what is really christianity, what does the bible say, and how to commit, that was through christian TV shows. After a period, she realized that she was lost and gradually held onto christianity. Later she started telling us what she knows, stories and bible verses and so on. I realized then that Jesus Christ is the saviour, and that I have to build my faith in him. I am still struggling 'cause really am in a hard situation.
What makes me really sad and scared, is that I've done many mistakes in my life. I had several relationships and you know how it goes when you are in a relationship. I was so stupid and out of my mind. I swear when I remember what I used to do, I feel like those days don't even exist! It really feels like if I was the person I am now, I would never do such things. I also didn't have anyone who can guide me. I am the type who keeps everything to myself, I don't tell anybody 'cause I don't trust no one...
Though I've changed a lot! I feel so depressed because of my past. I feel like, I am not sure if God will forgive me, or already forgiven me 'cause I am a repentant. How will I know if he already forgiven me?
My conscience is torturing me, sometimes I feel like I can't breathe...
And I am wondering if any of you have been through relationships and went deeper and then realized that it's wrong to go deeper, what I mean is sexual stuff and everything should be with God's limits.. If anyone can share me their stories.
Finally, my questions are:
If I am a real repentant, does God really forgive me for all what I did no matter what my mistakes were? How will I feel his forgiveness and free my conscience?
Do I have to tell anybody like my sister about my past or just it's okay to forget it all and move on?
How can I raise my christianity and from where shall I start?
How do a good relationship with the opposite gender should be? How can I make sure it goes within God's limits?
I need your advices people. I would be more than thankful...
Waiting for replies...
God bless you all...