I don't know what to say. God is guarding my heart. When the peace that does surpass understanding comes, it's meant to do just that, keep you from knowing what to say. Not completely, but it only allows in and out what He wants.
I'm thankful for that. I like to call what I go into the centrifuge. It's a complicated pattern of thoughts that just continually revolve around until i'm worn out and whatever i'm worried about has been stretched or conformed to how I want to see it.
It's been hard to see outside of that habit for a long time. And I have no doubt that it will continue to be that way. I've been recognizing the need to discipline my way of thinking. It's actually hard for a mind that feels that freedom to explore it's one privelage, exploration.
Thoughts are the one way I come in and out of the world. They shelter me, keep me, and free me. Once the battle is over, when i'm dead and gone, I know i'll have the new privelage of truly asking what it is my heart wants to know. Until then though, I'll just have to keep working, resting, all through prayer.
Some things work and some things don't, but the place is here, my home away from home and the time is God's.
I'm thankful for that. I like to call what I go into the centrifuge. It's a complicated pattern of thoughts that just continually revolve around until i'm worn out and whatever i'm worried about has been stretched or conformed to how I want to see it.
It's been hard to see outside of that habit for a long time. And I have no doubt that it will continue to be that way. I've been recognizing the need to discipline my way of thinking. It's actually hard for a mind that feels that freedom to explore it's one privelage, exploration.
Thoughts are the one way I come in and out of the world. They shelter me, keep me, and free me. Once the battle is over, when i'm dead and gone, I know i'll have the new privelage of truly asking what it is my heart wants to know. Until then though, I'll just have to keep working, resting, all through prayer.
Some things work and some things don't, but the place is here, my home away from home and the time is God's.