I woke up at 2 am to write down this nightmare I had today: “I was in front of anything like a booth or closed desk with one of my sons (I don´t know whom). I was paying for a ticket -or a trip- and the money tray was suddenly opened in front of me. There was not any operator who say anything or help, so I nervously took out a package of anything that looked like credit cards. There were coins inside it, perhaps tickets of papers, but while I felt nervous I turned my sight to the right the very moment I planned to put my right hand into the money tray to grab anything of value, except coins.
After I stole and closed the tray I felt the guilt. One thing is coveting or greed, but another things is stealing or taking what belongs to another.
I cared nothing except seizing what I thought I could use later on (and I don’t know how to use credit cards). Morally I paid no attention one of my children was present. I turned to the public eye of a camera for a second, that when I guessed it was watching me. I entered that room but that it wasn´t my intention (as many has failed when tented). I wish it had stopped from the begging, but I didn´t know how to re-open the money tray to give those things back. After I did wrong I didn´t know what to do,inside the booth, so I opened my eyes and saw the covetousness and the greed that steals.
Back in the world of the living I knew who I am and what I shouldn´t do. This area is weak as so many are, but I believed the nightmare teaches me on what to pray and what I should change (I wish I could fix it in the heavenly realms).
In bed I wished I had put my hands over the head or having shut away the tray quickly, but I stole. Real life cannot be rehearsed and I stole anything in that nightmare (Is this how many fall, with no turning back?).
I guess many have fallen in tests like thisand hurt me what I felt. I´m thankful to acknowledge this weakness I have to work on, I felt the pain, my sins.
In my mind I could find an alibi: I spent all the money I was saving to buy construction materials to keep on building my house, but the sin is the same.
Yes! I regret not having the money flow I wish to buy my world. I know I must trust God, not me; but my mind says another thing...
Have you ever felt -or lived- anything like this?
If you want to share it, go ahead!
If you are a cop -please- Forgive me!
(I already wear these handcuffs I made typewriting this nightmare)
After I stole and closed the tray I felt the guilt. One thing is coveting or greed, but another things is stealing or taking what belongs to another.
I cared nothing except seizing what I thought I could use later on (and I don’t know how to use credit cards). Morally I paid no attention one of my children was present. I turned to the public eye of a camera for a second, that when I guessed it was watching me. I entered that room but that it wasn´t my intention (as many has failed when tented). I wish it had stopped from the begging, but I didn´t know how to re-open the money tray to give those things back. After I did wrong I didn´t know what to do,inside the booth, so I opened my eyes and saw the covetousness and the greed that steals.
Back in the world of the living I knew who I am and what I shouldn´t do. This area is weak as so many are, but I believed the nightmare teaches me on what to pray and what I should change (I wish I could fix it in the heavenly realms).
In bed I wished I had put my hands over the head or having shut away the tray quickly, but I stole. Real life cannot be rehearsed and I stole anything in that nightmare (Is this how many fall, with no turning back?).
I guess many have fallen in tests like thisand hurt me what I felt. I´m thankful to acknowledge this weakness I have to work on, I felt the pain, my sins.
In my mind I could find an alibi: I spent all the money I was saving to buy construction materials to keep on building my house, but the sin is the same.
Yes! I regret not having the money flow I wish to buy my world. I know I must trust God, not me; but my mind says another thing...
Have you ever felt -or lived- anything like this?
If you want to share it, go ahead!
If you are a cop -please- Forgive me!
(I already wear these handcuffs I made typewriting this nightmare)
