I had the same problem you had, and then something happend.... The Bible was revealed by God to me. Every sentance I read from then of was ABOUT MYSELF... Unlike ANY other book I have read, this one did not create images of OTHER PEOPLE, but IMAGES OF MYSELF!
Let me share ONE of these REVELATIONS to you and maybe you can find yourself also in the WORD OF GOD... the Bible!
I healed people when I prayed to Jesus. My peronal favourate was the wife of our church caretaker. She had kidney stones and she was scheduled for an op at the clinic on the Friday. We had a church council meeting on the Thursday evening from 7 PM to 11 PM. Oom Bronkie (Uncle Bronkie) was to lock up after the meeting but his wife was just across the street in much pain from the kidney stones.... So after the meeting just as I was about to leave, oom Bronkie asked me... Cobus would you pray for my wife, and the kidney stones.... I said, right now Oom Bronkie... so we walked into a queit room and prayed... He locked up and went home.
Sunday morning in church Oom Bronkie walked to the front with a little pill bottle in his hand... He said... On Thursday evening after the meeting a friend and I prayed for my wife. When I got home, my wife had ALL the kidney stones in a pill bottle... they just FELL from her body, when we prayed... this is them in this bottle...
So I really felt good.... Man God is using me to heal the sick, and remove kidney stones WITHOUT PASSING WATER.... WOW! Miricles happen when I pray in the name of Jesus.... Then! a few months later, and a lot of mricles later, I prayed for a two yearol boy with a deformed hip.... I left and the boy still had a deformed hip.... I WAS FURIOUS with God... why did He NOT heal the boy? What you should know, I was still sinning at that stage... still working the iniquity. And I believed Jesus died for my sins, so it is OK! That is why I do not understand why God did not heal this boy tonight, we could have SAVED a lot of souls if HE DID!.... But I was going to rush home after I dropped off all the people that was with me in the mini-bus...
I got home and asked God.... ARE YOU REAL? Then the biggest urge came over me to open the Word of God and read... I did this came up.... 1 John 3:9... Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God. .....
I said... NO GOD THIS BIBLE IS LIEING TO ME.... NOBODY IS PERFECT AND WE ALL SIN....
God answered when I opened my Bible at this verse.... Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.
Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? Like me healing the people??????
And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity. OH! This was me... DEFINATELY ME!
Then I asked... WAHT SHOULD I DO.... and HE said.... GENESIS 1:1 START!!!!!
Then I could see myself righte through the Bible, from ADAM, to JESUS!
That is what the WORD OF GOD DOES.... That Bible takes a sinning ADAM, and WORKS ON THE HEART, untoll that SINNING ADAM, is A FULL MATURE JESUS!!!!
That is how powerful the Bible is... Now go and let the TRUTH MAKE YOU FREE... John 17:17... God's Word is the TRUTH