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I know God has been calling me to a life of true faith and holiness but I keep falling back into a pattern of sin, fear, and condemnation. The enemy comes and tempts me and all of a sudden the rationalizations kick into high gear. "It'll be okay, Jesus has your back"; "Hey, if He has indeed forgiven you for everything you've done up to this point, surely He'll forgive this little indiscretion." And the worst thoughts are when I'm thinking of descriptions in Revelation about those who would not repent of their immorality and continued in their wicked ways as I'm engaging in a behaviour or thought pattern that I know is dishonouring and displeasing to God. Then, of course, the condemnation comes on strong and I fear my heart has hardened towards the Lord because once again I have continued in sin and didn't turn to Him when the enemy came in like a flood. I DON'T WANT A HARD HEART. God, please deliver me from this sinful, prideful, selfish flesh!