I understand where you are. It is a journey to come through. Remembering that this is just right now, and not forever, helped me. I have pages of encouraging scripture I looked up, and read and pray every day. Scripture starts to change how your mind thinks and what you focus on. You need encouraging compassionate people around you. Good counseling may help if you really need it. Something I prayed was...God I open the door of my heart to You to heal the place where my depression is. Your word says in Psalm 103:3 that You turn my darkness to light, and NOTHING can stand against Your word. NO depression can stand against YOUR ability to heal it.
Precious Loving Father, Please lift livingdoll out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire, and set her feet on a rock and give her a firm place to stand. Put a new song in her mouth, a hym of praise to You, God. Psalm 40:1
Anyone can get depressed. Billy Graham's pastor has written a book on his journey he went through with depression, I can't remember the titile. Be gentle with yourself. Speak encouraging words to yourself. David encourages himself in Psalm 42:5 where he talks about his soul being downcast and disturbed within Him....because he remembers he will yet praise Him again. He is remembering that this is just right now, not forever, and it WILL get better. It will!!
Personalizing scripture also helped me....God You are so great Ps 145:3....You hear livingdolls desire when she is afflicted; You encourage her and listen to her cry. Ps 10:17.......Nothing can be compared to the greatness of knowing You. Phil 3:8........You lavish Your love on livingdoll just so she could be called Yours. 1John 3:1.... You lift up livingdolls head Ps 3:3. And He WILL lift up your head!!
Lord I ask that You send ministering angels to livingdoll just like you did for Elijah when he felt he had enough, to replenish her, because of Your mercy and grace You offer to her when we come to You with her needs according to your word in Hebrews 4:6.
God Bless You livingdoll, my heart and prayers are with you. May God surround you with His angels and His love, and may He turn your darkness to light. HIS LIGHT CAN OVERPOWER ANY DARKNESS!! Being silent and meditating on His love radiating to me after I pray and listening for the sound of His voice in my heart helped too, He can speak encouraging scripture to your heart. I hope something I said helps. God Bless Your Heart Livingdoll!! You are cared about and loved!!