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I have been dealing with anxiety for a number of years but only did it manifest physical pains in the last couple years. For some reason in the last month these physical pains have gotten worse and worse. Today I was at a movie with a friend and it came on so strong I thought it was the end. I've tried so hard over the years to deal with and manage this but it seems so hopeless now at this time it is at its worse. Even as I write this the pain and discomfort overwhelms me with hopelessness. The trouble is not that the pain hurts so bad, it doesn't, but its the location and feeling of the pain. Often it is in my chest and left arm and leaves my face flushed. In the past the doctors told me it it was nothing. Even so the location of the pain scares me every time it comes on. During these episodes when I am struck with fear I question my faith. I wonder to myself, why am I so afraid? Don't I belong to God? I trust in Jesus for salvation, why then do I fear the very thought of the possibility of death? I'm so discouraged, I have no one to turn to or talk to. Its a beautiful day outside and I can't even enjoy it. I feel like I want to cry but the tears don't come. There seems to be no relief or release. God seems silent and distant. What do I do?