I'm so SO SO confused! :'(
My guy recently came back from USA. He was away for 2 years -we broke up while he was over there... I do love him, for he means a great deal to me and he's almost perfect in every aspect... Faithful to God, sweet, sincere, funny and smart... but there's some things missing, and I guess I kinda hope God intended something more for me... or maybe someone...
And I was accepted at PNX -its a Theology School about 2 days drive away from home. It breaks my heart thining about telling them that I wont be going. I was so excited about going... And I was certain God showed me the path to go there a few months back.
Logically it would be better to stay with my parents and study via correspondence. My guy is here, who is fantastic, and my whole support system is here. Also I know it's going to cost my father a lot to send me. I'm so afraid of failing my dad, like everyone else in our family. And ontop of that I'm afraid I ont make it there since I already dropped out of University once.
But I just have this weight on my heart to go.. I stil need lots of prayer! :'(
Thanks!