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I live with my grandparents who are religious , but I don't know if I belive in a God anymore. I'm scared I'm going to hell because I don't 100% belive, but if you get scared of God doesn't that mean you believe in him right? But I pray and pray and nothing never gets better.
My Uncle, aunt, mom, and step-dad all do drugs. They've stolen money and my mom stolen thousands of dollars worht of stuff from my grandparents house even my wii and all the games. She's been married to my step-dad for 2 years who is an old boyfriend of hers from her teen years has a history of drugs since he was like 12. My other Uncle even hung himeself partly because of them, but yeah he had other priblems of his own.
But after that they promised to God to stop. As far as I know my uncle and aunt slipped once who some pot, but they buy a 6 pack of beer every night.
My mom is pregent. I don't beilive she can stay clean for ine months. Yesterday night she and my step-father who is also a big drinker sneaked out they're still night back and it's already afternoon of the next day. Is't drinking and drugs bad for a 6 week-old fetus? If it's born with crack in its system won't child services take it away? I don't know what it is yet, but I still love it. Is that strange? I read a lot and I've gone through childhood depression and I think a lot and fight about God and death and life stuff like that in my head with myself. Is that weird too?
Just why if there is a God isn't he listening? Something very bad happened to me when my mom and real dad were still married so I didn't have a very happy life until my parents divorced when I 3. But why won't he make things better? It's been like this for years even before I was born! Just if there is a God where is he? And do I beilive in a God if I'm scared of going to hell?
My Uncle, aunt, mom, and step-dad all do drugs. They've stolen money and my mom stolen thousands of dollars worht of stuff from my grandparents house even my wii and all the games. She's been married to my step-dad for 2 years who is an old boyfriend of hers from her teen years has a history of drugs since he was like 12. My other Uncle even hung himeself partly because of them, but yeah he had other priblems of his own.
But after that they promised to God to stop. As far as I know my uncle and aunt slipped once who some pot, but they buy a 6 pack of beer every night.
My mom is pregent. I don't beilive she can stay clean for ine months. Yesterday night she and my step-father who is also a big drinker sneaked out they're still night back and it's already afternoon of the next day. Is't drinking and drugs bad for a 6 week-old fetus? If it's born with crack in its system won't child services take it away? I don't know what it is yet, but I still love it. Is that strange? I read a lot and I've gone through childhood depression and I think a lot and fight about God and death and life stuff like that in my head with myself. Is that weird too?
Just why if there is a God isn't he listening? Something very bad happened to me when my mom and real dad were still married so I didn't have a very happy life until my parents divorced when I 3. But why won't he make things better? It's been like this for years even before I was born! Just if there is a God where is he? And do I beilive in a God if I'm scared of going to hell?