Do I like remaining the same, do I want to conform in a mask?
I talk ‘being the change’ but I'm misinformed for the task.
It’s a fact that the scars leave us the habits half of us have,
Then we’re haphazard and rash leaving chasms deeper than pasts.
I imagine a fate that is black, I can't wake to the state of this life,
So I fade in the late of the night, when I wake I'm amazed at the sight;
Some type of joy that I know, and it's more than I've learnt to behold,
I fold at the knees in the wake of the light, knowin' they hurried me home.
The trees are a brown I never saw before.
The love's as right as the darkness was wrong before,
I see a face, smiling far off in the distance,
Run to it and throw my arms to hug the figure.
Before I touch it I hear the bleep, the noise returns,
Back to the Earth, with the voice of the nurse I burdened,
The doctor calls out, 'he's back awake',
'Bring him to theater, no time to waste'.
So I fall asleep dreamin' of her magic face,
The next morning my mother's sitting by my waist,
She says 'why'd you do that son? What did you take?'
..... I took a shortcut mom ...... cause I'm tired of the hate'.
I'm tired of coming home to the shouting and cursing,
I'm tired of lonely nights, and the days of just working,
I'm tired of the standards that everyone sets,
I'm captured in expectations I've come to detest.
I'm tired of the noise, I'm tired of the pain,
I'm tired of losing love for material gain,
I'm tired of being second best and ashamed,
I'm tired of racing a race that I don't want to race.
I'm tired of being honest to manipulative minds,
I'm tired of being told 'well at least you tried',
I'm tired of the life that knows nothing but lonely thoughts,
Cause nobody knows the heart of the man who's totally lost.
She said 'Your friends heard what you did, and they've come to see you,
She's been here all night, crying, and I know she needs you,
You have forty-two messages, make time to read through,
By the way your teacher just tried to reach you.
Your father and I, we'd like to keep you,
Just for a while, till your feet are beneath you,
I wish you'd told us about how you feel too,
Look, she's coming, I'll leave you with her to speak to.
She said 'I'm sorry for whatever I did honey, I didn't mean to,
The thought of losing you made me see that I need you,
I was just confused, I'm sorry, please forgive me,
I love you more than anything, I want you with me,
I know I hurt you, but is this my fault?
If you had gone, I don't think I could live at all'.
'It isn't you', I said, giving her hand a touch,
'I just never knew that people cared so much,
I was alone and afraid, feeling without a relief,
I'm glad I'm awake, I realize I was wrong as could be,
Please forgive me, for being so stupid...
'Don't you dare', she said, 'we both go through this',
Never ever think that you've no-one to help you to do this,
Just tell me next time, just let it out of you,
There isn't a day goes by where I don't think about you'
Don't hold it in.
I talk ‘being the change’ but I'm misinformed for the task.
It’s a fact that the scars leave us the habits half of us have,
Then we’re haphazard and rash leaving chasms deeper than pasts.
I imagine a fate that is black, I can't wake to the state of this life,
So I fade in the late of the night, when I wake I'm amazed at the sight;
Some type of joy that I know, and it's more than I've learnt to behold,
I fold at the knees in the wake of the light, knowin' they hurried me home.
The trees are a brown I never saw before.
The love's as right as the darkness was wrong before,
I see a face, smiling far off in the distance,
Run to it and throw my arms to hug the figure.
Before I touch it I hear the bleep, the noise returns,
Back to the Earth, with the voice of the nurse I burdened,
The doctor calls out, 'he's back awake',
'Bring him to theater, no time to waste'.
So I fall asleep dreamin' of her magic face,
The next morning my mother's sitting by my waist,
She says 'why'd you do that son? What did you take?'
..... I took a shortcut mom ...... cause I'm tired of the hate'.
I'm tired of coming home to the shouting and cursing,
I'm tired of lonely nights, and the days of just working,
I'm tired of the standards that everyone sets,
I'm captured in expectations I've come to detest.
I'm tired of the noise, I'm tired of the pain,
I'm tired of losing love for material gain,
I'm tired of being second best and ashamed,
I'm tired of racing a race that I don't want to race.
I'm tired of being honest to manipulative minds,
I'm tired of being told 'well at least you tried',
I'm tired of the life that knows nothing but lonely thoughts,
Cause nobody knows the heart of the man who's totally lost.
She said 'Your friends heard what you did, and they've come to see you,
She's been here all night, crying, and I know she needs you,
You have forty-two messages, make time to read through,
By the way your teacher just tried to reach you.
Your father and I, we'd like to keep you,
Just for a while, till your feet are beneath you,
I wish you'd told us about how you feel too,
Look, she's coming, I'll leave you with her to speak to.
She said 'I'm sorry for whatever I did honey, I didn't mean to,
The thought of losing you made me see that I need you,
I was just confused, I'm sorry, please forgive me,
I love you more than anything, I want you with me,
I know I hurt you, but is this my fault?
If you had gone, I don't think I could live at all'.
'It isn't you', I said, giving her hand a touch,
'I just never knew that people cared so much,
I was alone and afraid, feeling without a relief,
I'm glad I'm awake, I realize I was wrong as could be,
Please forgive me, for being so stupid...
'Don't you dare', she said, 'we both go through this',
Never ever think that you've no-one to help you to do this,
Just tell me next time, just let it out of you,
There isn't a day goes by where I don't think about you'
Don't hold it in.