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RibRob
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A few years a go my life was slowly spinning out of control. A slave to cocaine, depressed and feeling alone in this world even though I had a beautiful caring partner and a wonderful mum and family.I was given a moment of clarity just a few seconds were I saw my life for what it was I Praise Jesus for that conviction. Something had to change. I went to 12 step meetings and was introduced to the idea of God and praying and spirituality. I made many friends gained lots of wisdom from them and grew as a person. The cocaine abuse near vanished but I still felt the same inside empty and lonely and thirsty for life. Then 2 Mormons knocked on my door( I would usually have just ignored the door at seeing people like this). But something made me answer the door and let them in. They told me about Jesus among other things then we prayed together and In that moment I knew Jesus was calling for me. I knew in my heart my place was not with the Mormons though and as pleasant as they were and I praise the Lord for sending them I didn't take up there offer to attend church with them. The very next day a friend called me and I told him about my experience. I didn't know this but he was a believer and we spoke and he invited me to church with him so I went. I received Christ that day Hallelujah. I started reading scripture and praying regularly Things started to improve I got a place in a rehab and dealt with a lot. I got married to my girl in our church and a couple of weeks later I was Baptised. Then the enemy reared his ugly head. I started to question everything and I started to disbelieve in Jesus. I would try my best to disprove everything the bible teaches and says. I completely turned away from God I even grew to resent christians. The enemy had well and truly snared me in his trap. I went back to my old ways things seemed worse than before the depression returned my heavy heart got heavier. Although I never really turned back to drugs I turned to other debauched depraved behaviour. A year passed and I sought counselling and medication to no avail. Then one morning about 6 weeks a go I was convicted by the Lord which caused me to pray and I prayed and prayed till I believed and I turned and faced Jesus looked him square in the eyes and in my heart said yes you are my Lord and Saviour and I will follow you, thy will be done. I started to pray more and more than ever before and reading the Word with passion and a softened heart. I Found a new church and they feel like a family already. Life was poured into me and sin died its death once more. I am blessed daily and I receive gifts from the Lord all the time. I praise the Lord and I try my best to listen and obey. The enemy in his wickedness has tricked me a couple of times and I have fell foul to his evil lies but Jesus with his Grace saves me again and again though. And I feel transformed in Him who gives life and gives it abundantly. The Lord kept his promises to me even when I spat in his face and turned my back on Him! He came and saved me again. God is good and just. And not one of His children will be lost! AMEN
