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Dear brothers and sisters, I see from some of your responses that you are angry at me. You know what, I am not saying that there are not people worse off than me. But much of what I have gone through is not in these letters that I have written. Everyone says to pray and read the Bible. I have done that. Others say to give my life to Jesus. I have done that also. So please do not judge me until you have walked a mile in my shoes. I do not want pity from ANYONE!!!! That will not solve my problem.All I want is a normal life to be able to work and enjoy my family.I have been struggling with issues about God since the age of 22. I live in a constant fear that I cannot control. I DO NOT want to feel this way. Everytime the fear hits I start praying. You know what? It does not go away. I want to be well to enjoy the rest of my life.I do not think that is asking too much. I have two beautiful nieces (ages 10 and 13) .I want to be close to them. It is hard because I live in New York and they live in Naples, Florida . They have only seen me at my worst. They must think there is something wrong with me. Anyway, please forgive me if I have offended anyone. That is not my intention.But please do not belittle my situation. NO ONE knows the pain I have been through since the age of 22. (Both physical and emotional)With much love and appreciation, jeaniebeanie
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