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Hello, This is my first time in a chat room - pretty intimidating. I am here to try to obtain information. I have been following Chonda Pierce experience with depression and consequent commitment to a facility. It has been several months dealing with intense guilt and worthlessness. Now contrary to what you may think, I am very outgoing, gregarious, lead in several ministries, very helpful and compassionate towards those in need, I read and memorize Scripture. You name it. I am blessed and fortunate to have sharpening, kindred, Godly, strong Christian friends. There have been a few things occur in the last 2 years that I believe has led me to where I am today as best as I can figure. But instead of boring you with all the details, I have concluded that it is the fact that I have given up on those things I have worked so hard on. I see the apathy and disinterest in those in whom I have tried to pour my life into for His glory. That has to be one. The other is dealing with the guilt, the guilt that has kept me awake for many years. The guilt that I have passed on to my daughters the recipe for failure. While I did it in total confidence that I was following God's ways, it is definitely not so. I am now at the point of suicide, I believe I am now past contemplation as the plan is in motion once certain things are in order. There are things to take care of before it happens to make sure things are in order at home first. In those moments when I think I can get past this with help , I remember Chonda checked herself into a facility. Maybe a facility will help but not here as I live in a small community. Anyone know of the facility? While the plan is already set, I cannot do this until things at home are in order ( our living will is, but there are other little things I have to take care of first). Thank you for any info you can provide. Have tried her website but it offers no insight into the particulars. Thank you!
