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Hi everyone! My name is Kena. I was raised in a christian home and have been taught the word of God since birth. Recently I have been struggeling in my faith. They say God doesnt give you more than you can bare but sometimes i think he overestimated my strength. Over the last two years I have lost everything. My house, my car, my job and it seems I'm losing my mind. I have a nine year old son who is epileptic and adhd. I love him more than anythingbut sometimes i cant stand being around him this makes me feel like a monster. I have been sharing a room with him at my parents house which we are basically confined to and its so hard. My parents though undoubtedly christian are a little... well i dont want to talk about my parents or christians i'll just say they dont see thier wrongs but they never let me live down my past. No matter what i have done since or the fact that i have been attending church and really trying to change. All they seem to talk about is how much i've messed up or tell me i look like a drug addict because i have lost so much weight not seeming to realize i'm so stressed out that i dont care how i look anymore and i dont eat because i'm stressed and broke! I've prayed and cried, prayed and cried. Nothing has changed no wait then they turned of my unemployment. I am really starting to believe that God has forgotten about me or he has a very sick sense of humor. I get interview after interview they go well and then i dont hear from them. I want to die but i dont i dont want to go from one hell to another. I dont want to give up on God but I feel like he's already given up on me...I'm tired of praying just to get a no. I'm just tired period. I need help I cant go on like this. pray for me maybe he will listen to you.