Hello Lailee, Welcome to CC if you are new. I am very surprised that no one has offered you a lending ear. But only advise I can give you, never go by feelings. Go by knowing. You are saved, and Know that Jesus is LORD. and he will never leave you. He will always be there for you, even when you fall, which we all do from time to time. Jesus is always there ready to lift you up.
Even though you are saved and have become a Christian, and given your heart to serve him. We will fall into sin now and then. But when we do? we grow stronger, and we should repent from it each time. Only God can forgive. and help you on your path.
The good thing I can say is though, Even though we are still sinners, we have Christ Jesus in our lives. If we didn't have Jesus in our lives, then Im sure it could be worse. Get yourself to a church, and get involved with the church community, So that anything that you may have trouble with, you will be prayed for, and your Chritian brothers and sisters will be there to comfort, advise and lift you up to God.
God bless. Walk the straight path with Jesus, even if you turn off the side track, but trust in Jesus to bring you back to the straight path again.