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Maybe there is already one in here, somewhere, but I am a bit lazy to look pages for one. My apologizes about that. 
Well, I guess most of you knows what this thread is about? "It is to share how you are." Suprise?! Just thought that I miss having this kinda thread. You can choose how long you write about this, sometimes it might be shortly written, other times longer... Just do as it fits best for you.
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Right now I am feeling like I can not express myself the way I want. For some reason I feel awfully exhausted. I started writing a letter to a friend of mine, and I ended up crushing it all into pieces. I did write half a page but everything just seemed so wrong the way the words came out from my pen, I wasn't satisfied with what was written in there. Just became all boring as I tried just to quickly writing things down, as I feel very stressed about writing to her.
I told her last time that I had a lot to tell her, I had just finished a nice phonecall conversation with her the night before, and my mind was all the time working through everything I thought I should share with her. And I truly planned telling her a lot, as it is better as well as cheaper to be doing this through letter than through a phone conversation. But ever since we had our phone conversation during the start of january, many of the thoughts I had during that time has changed, so now there is a lot that I think is best to not tell, or at least not yet.
But this evening I just couldn't make myself writing this letter, I feel stressed by the thought of having to tell her as much as I first planned. I normally only start writing most of the time without having an amount of pages to write in mind, and sometimes a letter might become much longer than what I had in mind. But at least, then it wouldn't be forced and just happening all naturally. I think I should text my friend and telling her that I will just write the letter without having too much thoughts in my mind, and that if it becomes shorter than I planned, so let it become that way. As feeling always this stressed will only be streching my time in responding.
I must say that in a way this makes me feeling a bit guilty, but hopefully she will understand. I just hate feeling this way, then the enjoyment of writing to someone get's destroyed if you can not be relaxed.
Well, I guess most of you knows what this thread is about? "It is to share how you are." Suprise?! Just thought that I miss having this kinda thread. You can choose how long you write about this, sometimes it might be shortly written, other times longer... Just do as it fits best for you. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Right now I am feeling like I can not express myself the way I want. For some reason I feel awfully exhausted. I started writing a letter to a friend of mine, and I ended up crushing it all into pieces. I did write half a page but everything just seemed so wrong the way the words came out from my pen, I wasn't satisfied with what was written in there. Just became all boring as I tried just to quickly writing things down, as I feel very stressed about writing to her.
I told her last time that I had a lot to tell her, I had just finished a nice phonecall conversation with her the night before, and my mind was all the time working through everything I thought I should share with her. And I truly planned telling her a lot, as it is better as well as cheaper to be doing this through letter than through a phone conversation. But ever since we had our phone conversation during the start of january, many of the thoughts I had during that time has changed, so now there is a lot that I think is best to not tell, or at least not yet.
But this evening I just couldn't make myself writing this letter, I feel stressed by the thought of having to tell her as much as I first planned. I normally only start writing most of the time without having an amount of pages to write in mind, and sometimes a letter might become much longer than what I had in mind. But at least, then it wouldn't be forced and just happening all naturally. I think I should text my friend and telling her that I will just write the letter without having too much thoughts in my mind, and that if it becomes shorter than I planned, so let it become that way. As feeling always this stressed will only be streching my time in responding.
I must say that in a way this makes me feeling a bit guilty, but hopefully she will understand. I just hate feeling this way, then the enjoyment of writing to someone get's destroyed if you can not be relaxed.
