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How come I can't seem to ever be just friends with the one I love? Is it because my love for them is too strong and they can't see it? Or is it that the person I love is lost and blinded to it at the moment? Perhaps this would be my chance to really show it to her, though she's focused on her expectations with this other guy who I know doesn't have the love of the Father in him,.. So if I can keep her aware of what it means to be loved by me, for my love is an example of Christ's love for the church. Maybe she will eventually see that she can't get what she desires from the "love" she expects from him. Just maybe. This time however, I feel that I don't have the option to not love her anymore. I've tried to do that before a few times and it never works,.. So in the meantime, I show love by welcoming her and suffering because I can't have her yet. Christ suffered to death on the cross because He loves me. Sacrifice is the means by which true love is displayed. And His resurrection is validation of that love. I believe that true love apart from the Father; devotion, long suffering, harmony and peace (which are of God) isn't true at all,..
So I just figured I'd share this part of my current life with you all, in the hopes that someone reads it and benefits from what I have learned about God's love and cares enough to pray for the redemption of her spirit through me as His humble Bondservant. I continue to pray frequently about this, but I suffer in the meantime. It's not so bad though, because just having her in my life again is enough for me to try to always persevere to accomplish the purpose for which God planned to do by bringing her back into my life. It's never easy, but this is harder than I thought it'd be. So as long as I remain humble and true to The Lord and display His love for me to her, I have faith that good things will continue to come. I know for a fact that she's not completely lost. There's still that thing inside her that gives her the sense that what she is doing is bad and she wants it to be good. So I pray that God will cause His love to be felt by her, as it by me.
So I just figured I'd share this part of my current life with you all, in the hopes that someone reads it and benefits from what I have learned about God's love and cares enough to pray for the redemption of her spirit through me as His humble Bondservant. I continue to pray frequently about this, but I suffer in the meantime. It's not so bad though, because just having her in my life again is enough for me to try to always persevere to accomplish the purpose for which God planned to do by bringing her back into my life. It's never easy, but this is harder than I thought it'd be. So as long as I remain humble and true to The Lord and display His love for me to her, I have faith that good things will continue to come. I know for a fact that she's not completely lost. There's still that thing inside her that gives her the sense that what she is doing is bad and she wants it to be good. So I pray that God will cause His love to be felt by her, as it by me.