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I cant seem to be happy with what I have. God has blessed me with so much yet I am constantly trying to make more money, obsessively so. I live in a nice home, have ample savings, my husband has a secure job which allows me to stay home, we are healthy and both still have our parents. Yet I am constantly driven to make money. It didnt use to be this way. In October of last year I convinced my husband to invest in the stock market. We lost some money at first but got it all back, made a big profit, lost that plus some, broke even, made a tiny profit and then sold all our stocks. Actually it was my husband that sold everything because he was tired of me obsessing over it. I would be on the computer or watching TV at least 12-15 hours per day. I would wake him up at 4:30 in the morning crying over a mistake I made. Unfortunately since selling our stock, we have seen a huge increase in its price that would have made us tens of thousands of dollars, more if it continues upward. I dont know what to do at this point. I have prayed over it and find peace temporarily but the thoughts of missed opportunities keep popping into my head. I woke up early again today and couldnt stop thinking about what I should do Monday. Should I buy back our stocks at much higher prices, should I try to avoid the stock market altogether, etc. My husband has tried to comfort me by pointing out all that we have but I cant help myself. Im the type of person who gets a thrill out of saving 5 cents per gallon in gas, how am I suppose to accept that we would have an extra $40k if he didnt sell our shares of stocks? Some people believe that the stock market is evil and in the bible it says love of money is the root of all evil. Does that mean I should stay away from the stock market? If I do so, wont I be sick if that $40k in lost profit grows to $500k? or $1 million? How could I cope with that? My husband says we dont need the money but maybe someday we will. I wish I never would have gotten into the stock market in the first place. Now I am faced with forever knowing that I owned x number of shares of company z. Anytime in the future I can know what todays decision will have cost. Can someone provide me with christian based advice on what to do?