lol so am I, it's something that I'm learning and it's becoming easier to just let God handle these things when I thought all I have is myself to deal with these feelings Alone . Thank you so much for your kind wishesGlad you are better now Gena_rose, remember call upon God in your darkest of times and He will lift you up. Sometimes God uses the darkest hour to call you to Him, because you have nowhere else to turn to. Nothing but the best for you in the future, keep your head up !