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My husband and I were having problems for awhile before he moved out. We have only been married for almost 4 years. He neglected me and my needs and put his friends before me. Then, I became resentful, bitter, angry, and as he calls it abusive by criticising him all the time. He said that he had to leave. God has now worked on my wall I had built up and I now have a strong desire to love and respect my husband and the anger has changed to a gentle and kind spirit. We have been going to a counselor for 2 months and it went from marriage counseling to descernment counseling because he hasn't decided to want to stay and try to make the marriage better. I am giving my husband patience during our separation and putting all of my time and energy into our 3 year old and reading christian books and desiring God to continue to change me. I pray for my husband and hope that my husband is not with another woman. I pray that the truth be known and that I will be able to handle the truth (if there is another woman). He tells me that there isn't and me not trusting my husband has also been another trial in our marriage. I have been cheated on in the past so because we only have sex one time each month for almost 4 years now; I can't help but wonder if he is cheating on me. I did experience turmoil in my heart for the first couple of weeks but God (through much prayer) has taken that anxiety out and replaced it with understanding and patience. It is still very hard and I can't help but wonder if there is someone else. Yesterday, I didn't hear a word from him at all. I don't know if I should call him or just wait for him to initiate contact. I need wisdom. I pray that he comes home and we live a life with God in our marriage and we live a happy and Godly life. Please help.
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