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Its a mixture of many things but in short i need prayer to know what to believe in and what i need to do with my life to make things right. Im tired of these suicidal thoughts and contemplating to do so. Tired of making myself completely useless and yet feeling i have little to no control over them and the things i thought i had control and a sense of purpose with i dont know how to deal with them. Mostly id like the prayer for me to have strength and faith to know what i want to believe in is something id continue my life wih cause everything else failed. Im at my ends here and i dont feel like im truly listened to and rightfully so. Pray for me and my family please cause we sort have fallen apart for a while. :-C