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I grew up in a missionary family... we move a lot, and we've been in countries where I was not allowed to come outside. I spent most of my life inside. Never had any real friends. No one to share my feelings with, and those I tried relating with, are not always there for me. I feel like they just want to get to know my secrets, "I mean why is she so different? what's are secret?". When I was in High school, and opened for friendship, I was bullied, and neglected because I was different. I didn't do what they did, I lived my life as Godly, as possible. Now that I'm in my early 20s I started feeling so alone, I feel like I'm far from God. I've started chasing after my own selfish desires of seeking attention and friendships while leaving God at the background. I pray for God's help, strength, and grace to move on. To shift my focus from selfish desires to God's will completely... sometimes I feel like maybe it's my destiny not to have friends.
Your advice and prayers will be greatly appreciated
. Thanks in advance 
Your advice and prayers will be greatly appreciated