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KitKat_33
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Hello fellow Christians!! How are you?
Basically im writing this to tell what Gods done for me through out my life. So here we go:
To understand my life i have to start from my beginning, I've been growing up with an older sister who is exactly 13 months older than me so we are pretty close. Anyways my father hasn't really been the best dad around he tries but its hard for me to forgive him for what he's done in the past. Before my parents divorced(i was 3 when they did) my dad used to beat my mom and sister when he was drunk. He was drunk when both my sister and I were born even. But until like 6 or 7 years ago i didn't know any of this. I startedto really just "hate" him because of what he had done in the past and how he would still verbably abuse my mom over the phone and make her cry. I had always been daddy's little girl when i was little but now my relationship with him is so damaged. i lost track for a while there. Anyways It got really bad with my dad two years ago, i started cutting myself when i would get off the phone from fighting with him because he made me feel so bad about myself, like i wasn't up to his expectations. I started seeing that cutting wasn't helping my problems after i cut in front of my best friend an I found out she started to because she saw me do it. I felt horrible because then my sister found out about my cutting and she started to too. I then iI started telling them i was done with cutting and got them to stop to. Not long after i realized i was still cutting but for not even that big of reasons. I was cutting over boy problems and friend problems and still my dad issues. I then told myself alright enoughs enough i need to quite this but i cna't do it alone, i need your help god. After i said that i started cutting less and less until finally i stopped. It's been two years since and i can still see the scares of when i cut before, it reminds me that ill always have problems but i can find other solutions so that i can forget my problems. Since i barely ever notice them.
But yep thats was how God saved me from my dark pit of depression and got me to really appreciate life. My relationship with God is stronger than ever before now and im going to continue to strangthen it!
Thanks so much for reading and i hope it helps you or encourages you to Trust in God with all you've got!
Basically im writing this to tell what Gods done for me through out my life. So here we go:
To understand my life i have to start from my beginning, I've been growing up with an older sister who is exactly 13 months older than me so we are pretty close. Anyways my father hasn't really been the best dad around he tries but its hard for me to forgive him for what he's done in the past. Before my parents divorced(i was 3 when they did) my dad used to beat my mom and sister when he was drunk. He was drunk when both my sister and I were born even. But until like 6 or 7 years ago i didn't know any of this. I startedto really just "hate" him because of what he had done in the past and how he would still verbably abuse my mom over the phone and make her cry. I had always been daddy's little girl when i was little but now my relationship with him is so damaged. i lost track for a while there. Anyways It got really bad with my dad two years ago, i started cutting myself when i would get off the phone from fighting with him because he made me feel so bad about myself, like i wasn't up to his expectations. I started seeing that cutting wasn't helping my problems after i cut in front of my best friend an I found out she started to because she saw me do it. I felt horrible because then my sister found out about my cutting and she started to too. I then iI started telling them i was done with cutting and got them to stop to. Not long after i realized i was still cutting but for not even that big of reasons. I was cutting over boy problems and friend problems and still my dad issues. I then told myself alright enoughs enough i need to quite this but i cna't do it alone, i need your help god. After i said that i started cutting less and less until finally i stopped. It's been two years since and i can still see the scares of when i cut before, it reminds me that ill always have problems but i can find other solutions so that i can forget my problems. Since i barely ever notice them.
But yep thats was how God saved me from my dark pit of depression and got me to really appreciate life. My relationship with God is stronger than ever before now and im going to continue to strangthen it!
Thanks so much for reading and i hope it helps you or encourages you to Trust in God with all you've got!
