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I thought this year was supposed to be a less stressful year than last....but, I guessed wrong, COMPLETELY wrong. At one point in our lives, we must all come face to face with our own personal demons. And when one has an addictive personality, those demons are terrifyingly hard to face, at times....ALMOST impossible to face. As a newly recovering alcoholic and addict, I am now facing the realm of addiction from the other side.....as my husband entered detox for his 8-10 year opiate addiction, which spiraled into a 5 month intravenous use of anything he could get his hands on. He is now addicted to "the needle".
A little back story....like I said before, I am a NEWLY recovering alcoholic/addict. I have never been to detox or rehab. I have been clean off hard drugs for 7 years; prescription pain/anxiety medication, for almost 2 years; and alcohol for since January 1, 2013. Hubby and I have been together for 10 years(we have been married twice to each other). We have been separated for over 2 years, and I filed for divorce and custody of our son back in October(due to his relapse and ongoing drug use/spiraling addiction). We lost our son back in May of 2011, due to our drug use/abuse. We regained custody in November/December of that same year.
Ever since hubby entered Detox and the treatment facility, he now wants his family back. He doesn't want me to go through with the divorce. I still love him, but I don't trust him. And, I can't afford to jeopardize my own sobriety....Our son has been diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder with Mixed Disturbances of Emotions and Conduct, and since November 24, 2012, I have been taking him to weekly counseling. I know God says no to divorce, unless it involves infidelity....I just don't know....is it a good idea for me, as a newly recovering alcoholic/addict, to maintain contact with my husband while he is at the treatment facility? He and his family have said that I am the reason he is in treatment...that he wouldn't be alive today if it weren't for me. I don't want to abandon him now when he needs me the most, but I feel alot of anger and resentment at times, when I do see him/talk to him.
A little back story....like I said before, I am a NEWLY recovering alcoholic/addict. I have never been to detox or rehab. I have been clean off hard drugs for 7 years; prescription pain/anxiety medication, for almost 2 years; and alcohol for since January 1, 2013. Hubby and I have been together for 10 years(we have been married twice to each other). We have been separated for over 2 years, and I filed for divorce and custody of our son back in October(due to his relapse and ongoing drug use/spiraling addiction). We lost our son back in May of 2011, due to our drug use/abuse. We regained custody in November/December of that same year.
Ever since hubby entered Detox and the treatment facility, he now wants his family back. He doesn't want me to go through with the divorce. I still love him, but I don't trust him. And, I can't afford to jeopardize my own sobriety....Our son has been diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder with Mixed Disturbances of Emotions and Conduct, and since November 24, 2012, I have been taking him to weekly counseling. I know God says no to divorce, unless it involves infidelity....I just don't know....is it a good idea for me, as a newly recovering alcoholic/addict, to maintain contact with my husband while he is at the treatment facility? He and his family have said that I am the reason he is in treatment...that he wouldn't be alive today if it weren't for me. I don't want to abandon him now when he needs me the most, but I feel alot of anger and resentment at times, when I do see him/talk to him.