You have been and continue to be in my prayers in Jesus. hugs
I went through something that broke my heart so greatly, it actually caused a permanent chang in my heart rythum.
I only speak to this because I know right now the pain is so great, that words cannot bring understanding or comfort. Hugs
I want you to know that Jesus will bring His great love to you in this, as to how long it will take, only Jesus knows this.
But I know Jesus took this great sorrow, healed and multiplied His great love in my heart.
So much so that I would not want to change anything that happened now.
Just keep looking to Jesus, in prayer, scripture, even a good christain vidio.
Not because you need to do this, but because Jesus will bring in those things we do in obedience, His glorious love.
I will pm you with a place I found comfort in prayer.
I will keep praying for you in Jesus.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles