TonydisUciple,
Let me share something with you that someone gave me. It really hit home and was a blessing to me.
Everyone longs to give himself or herself completely to someone, to have a deep and committed soul relationship with another, to be loved thouroughly and unconditionally.
But God says: No, not until you are satisfied, fullfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally, unreservedly to Me alone.
I love you, My child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me: exclusivlely of anyone or anything else: exclusively of any other desires and belongings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing- one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the very best. Please allow me to bring it to you
Just keep your eyes on Me, expecting great things. Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I am God. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must be patient.
Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look at the things others have, or the things you think you want. Just keep looking up to Me, or you will miss what I want to give you.
And then when you are ready, I will suprise you with a love far more wonderful than you could ever dream! You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready( I am working even this minute to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you wont be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me.. and this is perfect love.
I'm not saying that it is easy to wait, but know that God will bless you when He is ready. You just have to wait on Him
. I know that is not the answer that you want to have(believe me I don't either), but God has a great plan your your life. Just keep praying, reading God's word, and let God mold you into a mature man of God. I will pray for you. God Bless my brother
and don't lose hope. There are good Godly women out there I promise you.