J
This Sunday was my first day off the schedule and it was hard. I found myself fighting against being very critical and jealous. I still worshipped with all my heart, but my heart was broken. A couple of people asked why I wasn't singing, and I did my best to give a gracious yet vague answer. I don't need to be the center of church gossip. I know people with get nosier in the coming weeks and I'm not looking forward to their confrontations.
Also on Sunday, a man (over 20 yrs older than I) completely invaded my space emotionally and physically to the point where not only did he interrupt my prayer time, but he left me with the odd feeling that he would have attempted something more physical (though what he did was already inappropriate) had we not been in church.
I've also had to cut out another man from my life for at least a short time. I was clear, and he also met with the pastor and promised he would respect my boundary. The problem is, he's not really. In a little over a week, he's texted me several times and keeps posting things on FB about me. I know he's broken-hearted, desperate, and rebounding; but of all people, if I can not talk to him for a few months, he should be able to do it.
Recently, my health has been crazy. I've been more tired than I ever remember being. I can't run because it takes every ounce of energy I have to drag myself out of bed. About a week ago I slept 18 hrs. Everyday following that ive slept no less than 10 hours. I'm still active when I have something to do, but I just feel like my body won't wake up. It helped a little to take my medication, but I'm still exhausted.
I'm blessed and also scared. Because of some recent events, I've been more or less required to get accountability. I'm 28 years old and I've never been taught many things that most girls learn I their teens. I've never really had accountability because I never knew how to set it up. However, now I'm meeting weekly and pretty much texting daily a wonderful woman who oddly enough knows EVERYTHING about me. But I know that dealing with issues hurts, and I'm not looking forward to the pain.
Also on Sunday, a man (over 20 yrs older than I) completely invaded my space emotionally and physically to the point where not only did he interrupt my prayer time, but he left me with the odd feeling that he would have attempted something more physical (though what he did was already inappropriate) had we not been in church.
I've also had to cut out another man from my life for at least a short time. I was clear, and he also met with the pastor and promised he would respect my boundary. The problem is, he's not really. In a little over a week, he's texted me several times and keeps posting things on FB about me. I know he's broken-hearted, desperate, and rebounding; but of all people, if I can not talk to him for a few months, he should be able to do it.
Recently, my health has been crazy. I've been more tired than I ever remember being. I can't run because it takes every ounce of energy I have to drag myself out of bed. About a week ago I slept 18 hrs. Everyday following that ive slept no less than 10 hours. I'm still active when I have something to do, but I just feel like my body won't wake up. It helped a little to take my medication, but I'm still exhausted.
I'm blessed and also scared. Because of some recent events, I've been more or less required to get accountability. I'm 28 years old and I've never been taught many things that most girls learn I their teens. I've never really had accountability because I never knew how to set it up. However, now I'm meeting weekly and pretty much texting daily a wonderful woman who oddly enough knows EVERYTHING about me. But I know that dealing with issues hurts, and I'm not looking forward to the pain.
