Dear God,
I'm disappointed in a lot of things right now. I'm not going to waste my time repeating them all because you know what they are and why, but also, I've made an interesting realization through a friend of mine, and I want to ask you about it.
Am I meant to be an independent thinker? Am I suppose to be self-motivater? Am I to be strong enough to handle myself and not need another human to be there fore me? Is this really how I am to be? What if I can't do it, will there be another human for me to lean on?
I ask because I've sadly been wanting a close christian friend to hold me accountable and to just be there for me. I've learned to let be go, and to give them into your hands when I'm not there for them. But, then it comes to me.... I don't have that friend that I can rely on, so many people have left me it's not even funny. I don't have a close friend like I've been wanting, and I gave up looking. I was sad, but then a friend suggested that I may be strong enough and wise enough to take care of myself in terms of support and advice. I can do it all on my own, and I'm great with how I go about things. I feel as if I don't because I am so young, but maybe my friend is right. Perhaps this is what you are trying to get me to do. I'm not sure, but I do remember this. I shouldn't waste time doing something if it doesn't feel right. I'm still in search of what on earth you are doing with my life, but I know it'll be a great and amazing thing when this chapter ends.
"Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity." -1 Timothy 4:12
Love, Me.
P.S. I have hope in figuring this out in a better way then I had set before me at first.
I'm disappointed in a lot of things right now. I'm not going to waste my time repeating them all because you know what they are and why, but also, I've made an interesting realization through a friend of mine, and I want to ask you about it.
Am I meant to be an independent thinker? Am I suppose to be self-motivater? Am I to be strong enough to handle myself and not need another human to be there fore me? Is this really how I am to be? What if I can't do it, will there be another human for me to lean on?
I ask because I've sadly been wanting a close christian friend to hold me accountable and to just be there for me. I've learned to let be go, and to give them into your hands when I'm not there for them. But, then it comes to me.... I don't have that friend that I can rely on, so many people have left me it's not even funny. I don't have a close friend like I've been wanting, and I gave up looking. I was sad, but then a friend suggested that I may be strong enough and wise enough to take care of myself in terms of support and advice. I can do it all on my own, and I'm great with how I go about things. I feel as if I don't because I am so young, but maybe my friend is right. Perhaps this is what you are trying to get me to do. I'm not sure, but I do remember this. I shouldn't waste time doing something if it doesn't feel right. I'm still in search of what on earth you are doing with my life, but I know it'll be a great and amazing thing when this chapter ends.
"Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity." -1 Timothy 4:12
Love, Me.
P.S. I have hope in figuring this out in a better way then I had set before me at first.