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Today my friend died I received a call this morning from his mother she said "i'm sorry Israel died,he was shot" and hung up on me, no emotion in her voice i wasnt sure how to react i ws in shock i strted wheezing and barely made it to my inhaler in time almost wish i hadnt for a second... He was a good guy he never did anything wrong in his life idk y this happened...I was angry at him earlier i still am...my whole life has been full of empty promises and people saying they won't hurt me and end up doing so... I remember he said "I would never do anything to hurt u i promise,you can count on me being there for your birthday this year" well it seems like a lie nw...yesterday ws a really good day I had hope for having a bad couple of weeks now not so much i feel lied to betrayed sad angry...IT'S NOT FAIR HE DIED!...its not fair...i dnt want to lose hope but i'm feeling I am starting to...God is the only person who won't leave me but I feel so isolated right nw...if this is a test I dont like it...I feel like im losing everything i have got going good on right nw...please pray for his family more than anything they didnt deserve this...he didnt deserve this...he was one of my best friends and i'll never forget him may God keep him in all that he is...idk wut to do or wut to really say anymore...im lost for words