SarahMissie,
Please follow wwjd_Kilden's and Carpetmanswife advice! God is capable of everything, so please, pray, and I promise I will pray for you too! God blesses doctors with the knowledge of the treatment that would help you, so PLEASE, seek out help immediately! There's nothing wrong with seeking out help if you need it. Don't feel ashamed! Diabetics need Insulin, Asthmatics need inhalers, and I need my anti-depression medicine to balance my brain's chemistry, you might need the same, and there is nothing wrong with that!
God gave you life, it's a beautiful, precious gift, and I know what it's like to be so sad and feel so low that you wonder why you're alive to begin with, but I promise you, you're on this earth for a very important reason! You are God's work of art, and He loves you, just as I'm sure many people in your life love you, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
My thoughts and prayers are with you!
Ingrid