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I'm 18 y/o, and i'm having a problem. Right now, i'm 8 months clean of porn. I wasn't "addicted", it was usually an accidental fall, once or twice every few months, but now I've been clean and I have no desire to go back. The question comes with masturbation and that alone, no porn, no dirty thoughts, no scenarios playing in my head, just masturbation as a means of releasing sexual tensions built up, and in an attempt to relieve those feelings before they start desiring porn. On one hand there's times where I think in my head "its ok, its not bad" Then there's times where I hate myself after, I think stuff like "well now all your prayers are useless, God really doesn't wanna talk to you now" etc. My question or hope is to find some biblical teaching I can stand on. Like with porn, I cant really decriminalize it in my head, there is a clear verse on lusting and how it is the same as adultery, so i'm just looking for some brotherly/sisterly advice from fellow believers on how I should handle this. Thanks in Advance!