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bluebirdchaser
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I don't know what's wrong with me, or if there's something wrong with me. I can never really explain it to others. I mean I try, but it ends up coming out jumbled. I'm always mixed up. I think it's one thing and if it is then half the time I think I'm going to Hell, if it's not then it's like there's something just trying to jumble me up. It's hard to explain almost, like pulses in my heart trying to say words, but it's like there's more than one "voice" and they all seem to want to be God's voice, or maybe I just want them to be God's voice. It's been going on since probably middle school, my opinion of it always changes sometimes I think it's angels, or the holy spirit, or anxiety or the devil or I don't know and sometimes it feels inconsistent. I'm sorry. You'd need to crawl in my brain to really get it I think. I know my brother has schizophrenia, and anxiety runs in my family. I just don't know if I have it too. Anxiety for sure but... I don't know.I never know. I'm scared. Please, please pray. I haven't really talked about it very much ever.