Hello sister. Your not failure. My discernment is, you lack knowledge of God's word. Im not judging anyone.
I failed trade school and police written test, 1990s. I was in special education through school system. My earthy father thought I might have gift to succeed. My gifts are spiritual. I made plenty of mistakes in my life. I converted to Christianity in 1999. Studying under pastor for over 20 years.
What are you saying? Jesus called me out of the world to serve Him. Some Christians are called and chosen. Other's have Spirit of slumber. Luke chapter 9
How Jesus sent his disciples out to preach the gospel. Taught them how to handle failure. ' If people do not welcome you, shake off the dust off your feet, when you leave there town, as a testimony against them. Body of Christ plants seeds for God, if the individual rejects the truth, it's on there head. If they reject Jesus salvation. The individual is accountable for themselves. If they don't accept Gods word, move on, and plow forward.
It could seem like failure , if Christian is rejected after witnessing for Jesus. We can't take it personally. We're servants of God, we do the bidding of Jesus, our master. What appears to be failure is badge of honor. Failure might make us run away or give up. We can't. Jesus is counting on the body of Christ.
We must face our mistakes and failures in life. Too be servants for Jesus. Psalm chapter 46
God is our refuge and strength as ever present help in trouble. 46:2
Therefore we will not fear, through the earth give away, and the mountains fall into the seas. Body of Christ has Jesus for protection. Why fear Satan and his realm. God gives wisdom and knowledge to those who seek it. By studying Bible, and ask Jesus to reveal scripture that you have difficulty understanding.
46:5
God is with her, she will not fall. God wil help her break of day. Lean on Jesus for protection and comfort.
Proverbs chapter 10
The fears of the wicked will be fulfilled, the hope of the godly will be granted. Those who love, and serve God have a foundation. The wicked have no foundation, no hope, they reject Jesus salvation and the truth. Walking in darkness leads to destruction. Foundation of the godly is wisdom, knowledge, hope,faith and obiedence to God.
16:21
The wise of heart shall be called prudent and the sweetness of the lips increase learning. Godly women and men are spiritual, we are led by the Spirit. The wicked are none of this. They have unclesn Spirit. Godly Christian people seek knowledge of God's word, and achieve spiritual growth. Wicked are like Thorn bushes. There is no comfort from it. Meaning, its Worthless.
24:5
A wise man is full of strength, and man of knowledge Enhances his might. Sister, your not failure. Godly Christian people seek Jesus protection and knowledge. Wicked are failures. They choose to follow Satan and stay in darkness. Sister, stay strong in the Faith, and steadfast.
Remember Psalm 46.5. God is with her, she will not fall God will help her break of day. Sister, you can achieve enhancement, while the wicked keep running deeper into darkness. Lean on Jesus.
I hope this helps. Peace.