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I am one girl living on the earth, 1 of millions. Yet my family, my very own mother finds it in her heart and mind to kill me and to steal the spirit within me that keeps me alive. If she was not able to have patience with a baby, with a kid, and love me, rather than hurting me, she never should have asked for a child and got pregnant. No baby born intends to be a nuisance to their mother. My whole life has been ruined because she did not and does not know how to handle kids and does not truly love me. And she lives and breaths on this earth, yet acts like she is GOD. She acts as if she is GOD over my life and would not for one second allow others knowledge, abilities, and spirits to help me. At this point it is her desire to see me dead, and sadly it is working even though she is a liar. She is possesive and confuses my mind all the time, causing psychological damage that is unfixable. Something evil, something devilish inside of her insists on ruining my life. Well, she accomplished her task, does that make her happy to see me this way, knowing that she did it. Does it make her happy and satisfied that she killed a life that was precious and valuable to myself and to other people. Does it make her happy to realize that she hasn't even understood the error of her ways. Maybe it is my stupid fault for not discerning her heart, not discerning her character and making a right judgement, but I'm here now and no one is coming to rescue me. Despite all the sin and all the evil inside her, she judges my life and my actions to a perfect standard, one that she can't even meet. How can one person get away with telling so many lies, commiting so much sin, having no conscience, having no regard for a life that was created and became special to other people? I never did anything to her to deserve to be killed and die at an early age. NEVER. It is getting to the point, that although I know I cannot do it, I am wishing that someone come along and repay her for all that she has done to me. And that my request is heard and that I get a new spirit and live a long life. I have been telling my friends, pastors, spiritual people, teachers all along what has been happening but no one would listen. NOT A SINGLE SOUL. And I have told nothing but the truth. They have begun to act wickedly just like her. People who represent Jesus. So, I may be trusting this information to the wrong people but I have nothing left but to hope that somewhere, somehow this is heard and that the truth comes out. That people can see past my age, and begin to mend me and give me a new spirit. Although I am weak against her and how everyone else has not been strong enough in their own minds to assume their own thoughts about me, in my heart of hearts I don't want to die, not right now. But I don't know what to do.