R
bottle; Are they not in your book? Sometimes she would be sweet then she would be so cold to me I never really told her all the details of what was happening. You see to the world her and our son are two people to me they are the world. After she got her car, her mom was paid in full and eleven the gifts that would do it I thought that would really move her heart but it did not. I believe that God was telling me it would be him that brought my family home. She came down that Saturday to pick up the car I was able by the grace of God to get off work so I could see her. We got back to our house, I checked the oil, and I had to know something. I had to ask if she ever asked Jesus Christ in her heart. Well she did at one point in her life that made me smile. She gave me a big kiss good bye I was so happy and as soon as she did I heard a voice in my head say that would be the last time she would kiss you like. That and that scared me( that is how the enemy works I carried that thought for a long time you will read about it later). So she left I cried I was sad. At that point I had too choice's to stay sad crying complaining and give up or press on and know who my God is.
In all this God was building my faith my trust in him but in all these miracles and him showing me his will that she is for me I still was in unbelief. .one day I wanted to send her a gift but I did not have much money. well anyway I went to get my dad’s hair cut and mine I had forty five dollars well it only ended up being twenty dollars for both so that left me thirty dollars so I smiled and thought I can get us star bucks. Well that left me 23.00 dollars you know how much star bucks is. So I went to Victoria secrets (not that I had enough to buy anything) well guess what they were having a sale that day on sleeper pants for twenty dollars. Therefore, I had enough money how awesome was that and I asked if I could have the big box as well. I went home, went to Wal-Mart, and got my son 9 outfits. I put them in the box the next day I went to Kroger I wanted to buy a rose and put it the box the woman said it would maybe last a day or two max. Well I got it as I walked out the door I put one hand under the rose and one hand on top of it. Then I said God you gave this rose life it will have perfect life when she gets it, well I put it in the box and went and mailed. It now I checked on it the next day and it did not get there. I checked the next day and still it was not there. They said it was lost it has now been 3 days in the box I went the next day and they said they could not find the address so they were sending it back I was so hurt. The next day I got a call from her (it now had been in the box 5 days) she said she got everything I said what I had no idea what she was talking about since the post office told me It was coming back to me.
When she told me it was my box, I asked her immediately how the rose was she said it was perfect it looked beautiful. she had no idea all that went on with it she sent me a picture the next day of the rose and it was in full bloom that is my God and his grace and love for us he even kept a single rose not just alive but as if it was just cut fresh. Well on 3/09/2009, my aunt called and told me she asked the lord to give her a scripture for me it was job (36:11) if they listen and obey me they will be blessed with prosperity throughout their lives and all these years will be pleasant.
she said notice they and their plural it was speaking of 2 not one meaning me and Carrie I was so happy you see I have been looking for more conformation to God’s will. No in all this, she is still not back and was still not being nice sometimes she was mean in the natural it looked like nothing was happening but I believed a God where all things are possible. No, I could not believe that not all these things were happening for any reason. I mean let us look at what god has done to this point he saved me. which was the most important delivered me from being a drunk gave me a job lead me to a church where not only did I praise him he gave me a sign when I was handed that program from the same lady that bought my bed. You see if I had not gone to church that day or had I not gone back to my car for a coffee cup. I would have never got those words handed to me it was in Gods perfect timing that lifted my heart. He brought the people to buy the things that paid her mom every dime and got her car back even provided the way to get her parents there Christmas gift. It gave the money to catch up all my bills and have food that is a loving and powerful god. Everyone that did come to buy my things turned out to be born again christens how helped with words of encouragement and they all prayed for me and lifted my spirits it really helped me in my walk. To keep believing you see I lived far from anyone I knew but also when I turned my life over to Christ he separated me so I could start to learn and lean on him.
One day I was at lunch and I opened my bible to proverbs 31 and saw where it said a wife of noble character did not pay it too much attention but for some reason I took a Wendy’s napkin and booked marked it closed the bible and forgot about it. That night I called my aunt. we talked but I never mentioned proverbs 31.Iin fact like I said I forgot about it well like always she prayed for me at the end of our talks during her prayer she said I feel God wants you to prey proverbs 31 over Carrie I was amazed I turned to my bible to check if that was it. Sure enough, it was the one I booked marked with the napkin. I told her what had happen that day, it was God confirming his will for me as to believing her to be my wife and restore my family that my son will grow up with mommy and daddy. In all that, God had done and shown me my faith was still like a wave rocking back and forth I believe that is the church today. In his word, Jesus said was asked by his apostles about the miracles he was doing. He looked at them and said when I leave you will do these and grater things. Therefore, I believe that there is something wrong in the church not with God. I was standing firm that God would bring her back I would not move on that. One day I called my aunt and again we talked I know I was driving her crazy along with my other friend john who is also a born again. You see it seemed that God removed each person one by one, as I grew in faith. It was as if I was going from glory to glory in my heart I wish someone had told my mind. God knew it but me no my heart deep down inside knew he would restore us and always did know it has been my mind that I have been fighting with. I was talking to so many people my faith was a little in God and a lot in man. That is why I believe they were taken from me God will bring things or people in your life for a short season to keep you on track as you grow in him but at the end of that season he will remove them as you depend more on him.
Well my aunt I talked and pretty much, we always talked about what was going on. Can you imagine that would drive people crazy how precious she is and such a warrior for God? Well thank God he gave her endurance after we talked to her she encouraged me. We prayed and during that, prayer she paused smiled and felt maybe that we would have a little girl one day now; my aunt never says God told her to say this or that it was a feeling in her maybe from God remember this I will finish in the latter part of the story. You will see how loving God truly is. Well we lived in this house we rented and when we moved in we painted and started fixing up the house she never wanted to paint or anything it was all ways my idea but I thought I was doing what she wanted a nice house. I never listened what I mean is she would say things but mind was always focused on money and every other thing I did not need. I never finished the work on the house. Therefore, there were cabinets UN painted without doors and the house was not very clean. Well I started to want to clean and fix the house I got the carpet cleaned and some house cleaners cleaned the house when they showed up to tell me how much I could not afford it. So I asked them if I could give them two checks each that they could despot one that week and one the next week they agreed. I also had the yard done I thought for sure God was doing this. All the things I did not finish I finished the house looked great. I had ordered a bed set from rent a center 3 weeks back. At the time the house was done the bed set arrived that last day before she was to come down. All this was done in one week by god’s grace well she came to visit me on Easter Friday. I thought for sure when she saw all that was done not to mention how God has changed me and the love he has given me. Even in all that she was walking on me I was still right there full of love you see my priorities were never right until I put god first in my life. She did not stay but I was able to show her so much love. We have to watch TV and hang out with our son. She gave me like five little kisses mu heart was so warm. Then I watched Joel Osteen while she took a nap. As I watched Joel Osteen when it was almost over she said do not turn it off she was listening I thought she was a sleep. Therefore, I put another one from Joel Osteen on. I had them on our dvr each week his message was like God coming right through him to boost me up. Each week’s message was as if for a new problem I was going through.
As we watched the message is was on how God works all things together for our good. When he was talking he said all God has to do is add a little of Gods ingredient and bam every changes. Well when she heard that, she said ya that is what I need God to add some sugar to me. What was happening is god’s word was planting seed in her Heart. She was going to stay until Sunday but left the next day with our son. I cried and was asking God why? I was so sad I got texts from her later that day saying I miss you and she would think about coming back. Well I smiled and got happy only to get sad again. I will say I was building more and more faith in God I was not getting as upset and wavering back and forth. I was so happy It looked like I would maybe her and my son would come back and we would be together. That was not the case she did not come back and after that I lost my job and things were going downhill fast I had felt to move to Memphis but I kept pushing it off then. Then on Sunday April 26, I saw a message on Joel Osteen about stepping out into your divine destiny. The next day I had such a burden to move I called her and told her I was moving there .now she had gotten a job 3 weeks before I moved there and (which when I heard that I was hurt I asked God why but it must have been his plan) anyway.
Therefore, I started looking for an apartment I found online that night an ad for one. It had a name of a girl on it with the name Jill I saved it. Well the next day I tried to call her all day I was about to give up as I was going to try one more time when she called me. She told me I needed a cosigner and well God already had one it was a man that I had known since I moved to Mississippi. Whom I thought would never do anything like that well he got me his information it was all coming together. Well she turned in our apt to the apartments they were having a no application fee special. You see I was in Mississippi they were in Tennessee so I would have had to send money by mail for the application fee. Therefore, when I saw we did not have to pay for the app fee and the name trinity lakes I thought for sure this was the one God was giving us. Well it was not we were turned down I was so sad upset started questioning if I was doing the right thing. Well I asked Jill what to do well Jill asked if I tried, this one I said no but they want an app fee. Well she called them and asked if they would let me send her, the money by wire and if so would they run the app. well they said ok that was great accept it was 4:30 and they closed at six. I had no car you see when I lost my job I had to give the van back so for 2 months I walked back and forth everyday for food for my dad since he could not walk that far do to his condition. Well I had asked the neighbor earlier that day if he would take me the store he said no. now it was 4:30 and I had to go to the store to wire the money so I had to ask again. Well I did this time he said yes (I believe if he had said yes earlier he would have said no this time). I believe God moved one his heart to say no the first time because I would need it later. When I needed to go, the most well I got it wired and got back home called Jill told her I sent it. I told her don’t care where its located at this point we just need one you see I sold my refrigerator washer dyer tools all the things we did not need in an apartment.
All that stuff we did not need gave us all the money we would need to move. also everything I sold was gone the same day so if we did not move we would be in trouble .well God did not fail us she turned in the paper work to this one apartment and I called my aunt we prayed that day at 6:00 pm they called and said we got it. Not only did we get it, but also first off it was the nicest of them 2nd it had a handicapped bathroom for my dad. Now hear this I had no idea where the apartments we located. Well this is how great our God is the complex turned out to be right across the street from carries job 3 miles from her moms and 3 miles from Calvary chapel, the same church my aunt goes to in California. God had it all planned out well we moved up here on the 11th of May we could not move into them until the 12th. The first day I got here, I had to stay at a hotel until we could move into the apartment the next day. Therefore, during that day I went to the mall with Carrie and my little boy and remember what I said about having a little girl. Well we were in a store and Carrie starts smiling, goes to say something, and stops. Well I ask her what she keeps smiling, I ask again, and she says maybe we will have a little girl next. Well I just smiled inside and I never told her what my aunt said (remember what I
In all this God was building my faith my trust in him but in all these miracles and him showing me his will that she is for me I still was in unbelief. .one day I wanted to send her a gift but I did not have much money. well anyway I went to get my dad’s hair cut and mine I had forty five dollars well it only ended up being twenty dollars for both so that left me thirty dollars so I smiled and thought I can get us star bucks. Well that left me 23.00 dollars you know how much star bucks is. So I went to Victoria secrets (not that I had enough to buy anything) well guess what they were having a sale that day on sleeper pants for twenty dollars. Therefore, I had enough money how awesome was that and I asked if I could have the big box as well. I went home, went to Wal-Mart, and got my son 9 outfits. I put them in the box the next day I went to Kroger I wanted to buy a rose and put it the box the woman said it would maybe last a day or two max. Well I got it as I walked out the door I put one hand under the rose and one hand on top of it. Then I said God you gave this rose life it will have perfect life when she gets it, well I put it in the box and went and mailed. It now I checked on it the next day and it did not get there. I checked the next day and still it was not there. They said it was lost it has now been 3 days in the box I went the next day and they said they could not find the address so they were sending it back I was so hurt. The next day I got a call from her (it now had been in the box 5 days) she said she got everything I said what I had no idea what she was talking about since the post office told me It was coming back to me.
When she told me it was my box, I asked her immediately how the rose was she said it was perfect it looked beautiful. she had no idea all that went on with it she sent me a picture the next day of the rose and it was in full bloom that is my God and his grace and love for us he even kept a single rose not just alive but as if it was just cut fresh. Well on 3/09/2009, my aunt called and told me she asked the lord to give her a scripture for me it was job (36:11) if they listen and obey me they will be blessed with prosperity throughout their lives and all these years will be pleasant.
she said notice they and their plural it was speaking of 2 not one meaning me and Carrie I was so happy you see I have been looking for more conformation to God’s will. No in all this, she is still not back and was still not being nice sometimes she was mean in the natural it looked like nothing was happening but I believed a God where all things are possible. No, I could not believe that not all these things were happening for any reason. I mean let us look at what god has done to this point he saved me. which was the most important delivered me from being a drunk gave me a job lead me to a church where not only did I praise him he gave me a sign when I was handed that program from the same lady that bought my bed. You see if I had not gone to church that day or had I not gone back to my car for a coffee cup. I would have never got those words handed to me it was in Gods perfect timing that lifted my heart. He brought the people to buy the things that paid her mom every dime and got her car back even provided the way to get her parents there Christmas gift. It gave the money to catch up all my bills and have food that is a loving and powerful god. Everyone that did come to buy my things turned out to be born again christens how helped with words of encouragement and they all prayed for me and lifted my spirits it really helped me in my walk. To keep believing you see I lived far from anyone I knew but also when I turned my life over to Christ he separated me so I could start to learn and lean on him.
One day I was at lunch and I opened my bible to proverbs 31 and saw where it said a wife of noble character did not pay it too much attention but for some reason I took a Wendy’s napkin and booked marked it closed the bible and forgot about it. That night I called my aunt. we talked but I never mentioned proverbs 31.Iin fact like I said I forgot about it well like always she prayed for me at the end of our talks during her prayer she said I feel God wants you to prey proverbs 31 over Carrie I was amazed I turned to my bible to check if that was it. Sure enough, it was the one I booked marked with the napkin. I told her what had happen that day, it was God confirming his will for me as to believing her to be my wife and restore my family that my son will grow up with mommy and daddy. In all that, God had done and shown me my faith was still like a wave rocking back and forth I believe that is the church today. In his word, Jesus said was asked by his apostles about the miracles he was doing. He looked at them and said when I leave you will do these and grater things. Therefore, I believe that there is something wrong in the church not with God. I was standing firm that God would bring her back I would not move on that. One day I called my aunt and again we talked I know I was driving her crazy along with my other friend john who is also a born again. You see it seemed that God removed each person one by one, as I grew in faith. It was as if I was going from glory to glory in my heart I wish someone had told my mind. God knew it but me no my heart deep down inside knew he would restore us and always did know it has been my mind that I have been fighting with. I was talking to so many people my faith was a little in God and a lot in man. That is why I believe they were taken from me God will bring things or people in your life for a short season to keep you on track as you grow in him but at the end of that season he will remove them as you depend more on him.
Well my aunt I talked and pretty much, we always talked about what was going on. Can you imagine that would drive people crazy how precious she is and such a warrior for God? Well thank God he gave her endurance after we talked to her she encouraged me. We prayed and during that, prayer she paused smiled and felt maybe that we would have a little girl one day now; my aunt never says God told her to say this or that it was a feeling in her maybe from God remember this I will finish in the latter part of the story. You will see how loving God truly is. Well we lived in this house we rented and when we moved in we painted and started fixing up the house she never wanted to paint or anything it was all ways my idea but I thought I was doing what she wanted a nice house. I never listened what I mean is she would say things but mind was always focused on money and every other thing I did not need. I never finished the work on the house. Therefore, there were cabinets UN painted without doors and the house was not very clean. Well I started to want to clean and fix the house I got the carpet cleaned and some house cleaners cleaned the house when they showed up to tell me how much I could not afford it. So I asked them if I could give them two checks each that they could despot one that week and one the next week they agreed. I also had the yard done I thought for sure God was doing this. All the things I did not finish I finished the house looked great. I had ordered a bed set from rent a center 3 weeks back. At the time the house was done the bed set arrived that last day before she was to come down. All this was done in one week by god’s grace well she came to visit me on Easter Friday. I thought for sure when she saw all that was done not to mention how God has changed me and the love he has given me. Even in all that she was walking on me I was still right there full of love you see my priorities were never right until I put god first in my life. She did not stay but I was able to show her so much love. We have to watch TV and hang out with our son. She gave me like five little kisses mu heart was so warm. Then I watched Joel Osteen while she took a nap. As I watched Joel Osteen when it was almost over she said do not turn it off she was listening I thought she was a sleep. Therefore, I put another one from Joel Osteen on. I had them on our dvr each week his message was like God coming right through him to boost me up. Each week’s message was as if for a new problem I was going through.
As we watched the message is was on how God works all things together for our good. When he was talking he said all God has to do is add a little of Gods ingredient and bam every changes. Well when she heard that, she said ya that is what I need God to add some sugar to me. What was happening is god’s word was planting seed in her Heart. She was going to stay until Sunday but left the next day with our son. I cried and was asking God why? I was so sad I got texts from her later that day saying I miss you and she would think about coming back. Well I smiled and got happy only to get sad again. I will say I was building more and more faith in God I was not getting as upset and wavering back and forth. I was so happy It looked like I would maybe her and my son would come back and we would be together. That was not the case she did not come back and after that I lost my job and things were going downhill fast I had felt to move to Memphis but I kept pushing it off then. Then on Sunday April 26, I saw a message on Joel Osteen about stepping out into your divine destiny. The next day I had such a burden to move I called her and told her I was moving there .now she had gotten a job 3 weeks before I moved there and (which when I heard that I was hurt I asked God why but it must have been his plan) anyway.
Therefore, I started looking for an apartment I found online that night an ad for one. It had a name of a girl on it with the name Jill I saved it. Well the next day I tried to call her all day I was about to give up as I was going to try one more time when she called me. She told me I needed a cosigner and well God already had one it was a man that I had known since I moved to Mississippi. Whom I thought would never do anything like that well he got me his information it was all coming together. Well she turned in our apt to the apartments they were having a no application fee special. You see I was in Mississippi they were in Tennessee so I would have had to send money by mail for the application fee. Therefore, when I saw we did not have to pay for the app fee and the name trinity lakes I thought for sure this was the one God was giving us. Well it was not we were turned down I was so sad upset started questioning if I was doing the right thing. Well I asked Jill what to do well Jill asked if I tried, this one I said no but they want an app fee. Well she called them and asked if they would let me send her, the money by wire and if so would they run the app. well they said ok that was great accept it was 4:30 and they closed at six. I had no car you see when I lost my job I had to give the van back so for 2 months I walked back and forth everyday for food for my dad since he could not walk that far do to his condition. Well I had asked the neighbor earlier that day if he would take me the store he said no. now it was 4:30 and I had to go to the store to wire the money so I had to ask again. Well I did this time he said yes (I believe if he had said yes earlier he would have said no this time). I believe God moved one his heart to say no the first time because I would need it later. When I needed to go, the most well I got it wired and got back home called Jill told her I sent it. I told her don’t care where its located at this point we just need one you see I sold my refrigerator washer dyer tools all the things we did not need in an apartment.
All that stuff we did not need gave us all the money we would need to move. also everything I sold was gone the same day so if we did not move we would be in trouble .well God did not fail us she turned in the paper work to this one apartment and I called my aunt we prayed that day at 6:00 pm they called and said we got it. Not only did we get it, but also first off it was the nicest of them 2nd it had a handicapped bathroom for my dad. Now hear this I had no idea where the apartments we located. Well this is how great our God is the complex turned out to be right across the street from carries job 3 miles from her moms and 3 miles from Calvary chapel, the same church my aunt goes to in California. God had it all planned out well we moved up here on the 11th of May we could not move into them until the 12th. The first day I got here, I had to stay at a hotel until we could move into the apartment the next day. Therefore, during that day I went to the mall with Carrie and my little boy and remember what I said about having a little girl. Well we were in a store and Carrie starts smiling, goes to say something, and stops. Well I ask her what she keeps smiling, I ask again, and she says maybe we will have a little girl next. Well I just smiled inside and I never told her what my aunt said (remember what I