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I need a lot of help from all of you but I'm just asking for a prayer because I cannot take this any longer. I'm about to share with you a very intimate matter I have never told anyone how I felt about it.
It's been two years since I have been separated from my ex-spouse and eventually the divorce was final. I have had too many nights, too many! that I cannot sleep because of my guilt and loneliness. I was a horrible husband and I deserve this mental torment. It was until after the divorce when I started searching for the Lord. I believe the Lord has worked in my life since I began searching for Him, He has opened my eyes to acknowledge my many faults and I am so much in regret. I have admitted to others that I had many faults that caused the divorce but I have not confessed that I miss my ex-wife.
I have thought about expressing this to my ex wife but I cannot confront her, it's been two years and I am too embarrassed of the horrible person that I was during our marriage. I think to myself that I'm sure she has moved on and getting in contact with her would be awkward or strange.
It's unfortunate to say that the divorce had to happen so I may realize that I needed the Lord in my life. If I was a better person in the Lord I would have been a person of love, patience, and forgiveness, and I would have never allowed the divorce to be an option.
The Lord has been so good to me, keeping me, my parents, siblings, family safe and in good health, receiving good recognition at work, providing me with necessary materials to live, keeping my old beat up car running, and providing me with a wonderful, loving church family, but I feel like He is not listening to me on this matter. I want to forget my past, I want to be able to sleep at night. I regret it and I won't be like that again. Please help me by praying for the healing of my broken heart.
It's been two years since I have been separated from my ex-spouse and eventually the divorce was final. I have had too many nights, too many! that I cannot sleep because of my guilt and loneliness. I was a horrible husband and I deserve this mental torment. It was until after the divorce when I started searching for the Lord. I believe the Lord has worked in my life since I began searching for Him, He has opened my eyes to acknowledge my many faults and I am so much in regret. I have admitted to others that I had many faults that caused the divorce but I have not confessed that I miss my ex-wife.
I have thought about expressing this to my ex wife but I cannot confront her, it's been two years and I am too embarrassed of the horrible person that I was during our marriage. I think to myself that I'm sure she has moved on and getting in contact with her would be awkward or strange.
It's unfortunate to say that the divorce had to happen so I may realize that I needed the Lord in my life. If I was a better person in the Lord I would have been a person of love, patience, and forgiveness, and I would have never allowed the divorce to be an option.
The Lord has been so good to me, keeping me, my parents, siblings, family safe and in good health, receiving good recognition at work, providing me with necessary materials to live, keeping my old beat up car running, and providing me with a wonderful, loving church family, but I feel like He is not listening to me on this matter. I want to forget my past, I want to be able to sleep at night. I regret it and I won't be like that again. Please help me by praying for the healing of my broken heart.
