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Hi all,
I joined this Christian Chat to ask of believers to please pray for me.
I am a 31 year old believer who has been CONSTANTLY having trouble staying true to the faith. For a couple of years now, I have been experiencing episodes of depression that last a couple of weeks. When I go for help with a therapist or church leaders, it seems to go well for a while, but then it eventually goes back to the depressive state.
It gets to a point where I become isolated, and indulge into sins from the past, such as smoking (which I have been on and off since I was 13), drinking and gambling. Also throw pornography in there for good measure, as I am a single male. I would then sleep in on the weekends, missing the services on Sunday morning, and continue in that cycle. It's driving me insane!
I have been in the word each morning. I am currently reading the bible cover to cover at my leisure, but I have dwelled on a few parts and have been praying the best I can (despite not wanting to most times).
I find it hard to try to mingle at church, I just have a feeling that I since I am going through this time, I can't connect with others because they'd either turn their back and not help or they'd speak "churchese" ( The old "I'll pray for you" and then walk away immediately, or "you need to be in the word and pray more".... even though it's almost impossible for me to do so...etc..)
My mind is so scattered as to what to do, that I just start feeling low. It's extremely hard to be me right now.
Thanks for the prayers all....I know the Lord will answer.....HE IS GOOD!
Rick
I joined this Christian Chat to ask of believers to please pray for me.
I am a 31 year old believer who has been CONSTANTLY having trouble staying true to the faith. For a couple of years now, I have been experiencing episodes of depression that last a couple of weeks. When I go for help with a therapist or church leaders, it seems to go well for a while, but then it eventually goes back to the depressive state.
It gets to a point where I become isolated, and indulge into sins from the past, such as smoking (which I have been on and off since I was 13), drinking and gambling. Also throw pornography in there for good measure, as I am a single male. I would then sleep in on the weekends, missing the services on Sunday morning, and continue in that cycle. It's driving me insane!
I have been in the word each morning. I am currently reading the bible cover to cover at my leisure, but I have dwelled on a few parts and have been praying the best I can (despite not wanting to most times).
I find it hard to try to mingle at church, I just have a feeling that I since I am going through this time, I can't connect with others because they'd either turn their back and not help or they'd speak "churchese" ( The old "I'll pray for you" and then walk away immediately, or "you need to be in the word and pray more".... even though it's almost impossible for me to do so...etc..)
My mind is so scattered as to what to do, that I just start feeling low. It's extremely hard to be me right now.
Thanks for the prayers all....I know the Lord will answer.....HE IS GOOD!
Rick