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Hey, most of us who have been in a relationship for a while must have gone through the sms issue. The moment where loving sms start to diminish or be less about what you would expect. My boyfriend even sent me parts of my own old sms. when I asked why he said" I wanted to send you something nice but didn't know how to phrase it, so I took parts of what I found nice in yours." It used to make me furious cause I wished he would say it in his own words and with his own heart.
Well god is like that too and i had not understood it before this morning.
Let me put you into the stream of my life for a few minutes for you to understand how god is being good to me on this one. For sometime now, I have had problems getting back to prayer as I had no idea how to worship god and get the message across in the right way . I watched videos of kim walker(as am a singer since am little and never wanted to use my voice in godly songs before) which made me humble and even jealous. I searched and searched but wasn't satisfied. I downloaded a mobile app for rosary prayers and started that repetitive prayer a few days ago and thought " if I could use it everyday It would be great". Last night was the first time I didn't do it.
This morning, my boyfriend was going to work and as usual, on Mondays its harder. I hugged him and while pressing my cheek to his heart I asked "will you be thinking of me today? Do you usually think of me when you are away?(thinking 'you would send me more sms if you did' at least it would solidly back up the "sure" you are about to say)
Right there, something lit up in my mind. The puzzle assembled up on its own.
Right then I understood that my perception of why I was to pray was all wrong. I felt like god missed me as naturally as I would miss my boyfriend all day. I knew he wanted me to talk to him. That though I thought that skipping 1 day prayer wasn't a big deal it made him suffer. Above all, I understood that he would consider me away from home as long as the final day doesn't arrive. I could feel the eagerness. He pointed out that the fake messages, the empty words, the feeling of obligation instead of the happiness to get in touch with him also hurt. He said that he could read it all as easily as I could in sms in received.
He made me feel that he longed for me to be myself and that that is how he likes me. I just love this guy!!!
This is something that is about to change my whole life and my relationship with him. Its an important moment for me, so i wanted to share. Hopefully, some will also find their ways through this post.
I feel so blessed....woooooohoooo
Good day eveyone
Well god is like that too and i had not understood it before this morning.
Let me put you into the stream of my life for a few minutes for you to understand how god is being good to me on this one. For sometime now, I have had problems getting back to prayer as I had no idea how to worship god and get the message across in the right way . I watched videos of kim walker(as am a singer since am little and never wanted to use my voice in godly songs before) which made me humble and even jealous. I searched and searched but wasn't satisfied. I downloaded a mobile app for rosary prayers and started that repetitive prayer a few days ago and thought " if I could use it everyday It would be great". Last night was the first time I didn't do it.
This morning, my boyfriend was going to work and as usual, on Mondays its harder. I hugged him and while pressing my cheek to his heart I asked "will you be thinking of me today? Do you usually think of me when you are away?(thinking 'you would send me more sms if you did' at least it would solidly back up the "sure" you are about to say)
Right there, something lit up in my mind. The puzzle assembled up on its own.
Right then I understood that my perception of why I was to pray was all wrong. I felt like god missed me as naturally as I would miss my boyfriend all day. I knew he wanted me to talk to him. That though I thought that skipping 1 day prayer wasn't a big deal it made him suffer. Above all, I understood that he would consider me away from home as long as the final day doesn't arrive. I could feel the eagerness. He pointed out that the fake messages, the empty words, the feeling of obligation instead of the happiness to get in touch with him also hurt. He said that he could read it all as easily as I could in sms in received.
He made me feel that he longed for me to be myself and that that is how he likes me. I just love this guy!!!
This is something that is about to change my whole life and my relationship with him. Its an important moment for me, so i wanted to share. Hopefully, some will also find their ways through this post.
I feel so blessed....woooooohoooo
Good day eveyone