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By the recommendation of a friend, I am reading a book called "A Ready Defense" by Josh McDowell. The intent of the book is to be able to defend the Christian faith.
Let me start off by telling my story and I will get back to the book and its place in my post shortly. I have always questioned my faith. I have always wondered if I was really a Christian. Recently I lost my job, my wife and I haven't been able to have kids, and things just were not going well. So, one day I decided to pray. I thought to myself, if I am going to pray, I better strengthen my faith and really determine if I am a Christian. So, I joined CC and started to educate myself on what it takes to be a Christian.
I have to say, I have been learning a lot. Being a member of CC has certainly helped to a point. I have met a lot of wonderful people that unknowingly have helped me on my journey. So, now I get back to the book. In the book it states, "Chrisitanity is not a religion. Religion is humans trying to work their way to God through good works. Christianity is God coming to men and women through Jesus Christ, offering them a relationship with Himself." With that being said - I don't think it has happened for me yet. I keep praying for help in trusting Jesus and to allow him into my heart, but it is almost as if nothing happens. I don't know if I am waiting for a "feeling" that it has happened. I know that I have been acting differently, the things that I were doing previously that were inappropriate, I am not doing anymore. I find that many of the behaviors of my friends and family are inappropriate and I never had a problem before. Does that mean I am trusting more in Jesus? Does that mean that my faith and Christianity is getting stronger? What do I need to do to get the feeling that Jesus has taken over my life and I trust him completely?
Anyway, that is where I am at right now. I can see improvements, but I want to be better. I want the change to happen over night; like a lightning bolt to the head. Is it unreasonable to think or want that? Am I doing the right thing for my spiritual growth?
I look for your suggestions and comments.
Let me start off by telling my story and I will get back to the book and its place in my post shortly. I have always questioned my faith. I have always wondered if I was really a Christian. Recently I lost my job, my wife and I haven't been able to have kids, and things just were not going well. So, one day I decided to pray. I thought to myself, if I am going to pray, I better strengthen my faith and really determine if I am a Christian. So, I joined CC and started to educate myself on what it takes to be a Christian.
I have to say, I have been learning a lot. Being a member of CC has certainly helped to a point. I have met a lot of wonderful people that unknowingly have helped me on my journey. So, now I get back to the book. In the book it states, "Chrisitanity is not a religion. Religion is humans trying to work their way to God through good works. Christianity is God coming to men and women through Jesus Christ, offering them a relationship with Himself." With that being said - I don't think it has happened for me yet. I keep praying for help in trusting Jesus and to allow him into my heart, but it is almost as if nothing happens. I don't know if I am waiting for a "feeling" that it has happened. I know that I have been acting differently, the things that I were doing previously that were inappropriate, I am not doing anymore. I find that many of the behaviors of my friends and family are inappropriate and I never had a problem before. Does that mean I am trusting more in Jesus? Does that mean that my faith and Christianity is getting stronger? What do I need to do to get the feeling that Jesus has taken over my life and I trust him completely?
Anyway, that is where I am at right now. I can see improvements, but I want to be better. I want the change to happen over night; like a lightning bolt to the head. Is it unreasonable to think or want that? Am I doing the right thing for my spiritual growth?
I look for your suggestions and comments.