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Why do people have to choose death over life? Why can't they understand what a gift it is? Why can I never push myself far enough to talk to someone about God? I can see that they're fading away but I still can't bring myself to talk about stuff that wont even matter past today. It hurts me to see people in pain and hurting emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I feel sad that my fear holds me back. Why was I saved from certain death multiple times if I can't even show people how amazing life is, how amazing God is? A million questions flow through my mind, questions without answers, questions I wish I had the answers too. But the questions and sadness continues as I watch people close to me slowly fade away.