Lets say, brother, that you take a moment to think about glorifying God in all things.
This world, it is temporary, the more you fill yourself up with it, the further away from Truth you will find yourself.
You understand my words, though you most likely do not want them to be true.... They are, and still will be, even as you make your decision opposite them.
It is the test of our lives, to see what one values more, do you lift up your own desires or do you take the mantle of salvation, remembering that we are slaves to what we obey, and follow Christ's example as set forward that we might know. Go forward boldly in Christ, or be lukewarm, the choice is yours to make, but if you ask of me my advice; it will always be the same.
Go, and seek thee the Kingdom of God First. Delight in all His Ways. Take nothing of this world of sin and fallen men, for there is nothing here of lasting value but what Glory God brings unto it.
Your Brother, In Christ,
~Witness_Israel