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After almost 7 years and 3-4 breaks of at least a year at a time,.. You've come back into my life again. It's like a dream but yet it has it's nightmares too. Because when You come back, it's so joyous that words aren't good enough to describe exactly what it was like. Then we grow closer to each other as even if in a relationship. Not physical, something I've never had with anyone else but God. The entire time we've known each other, it's never been physical, we don't know each others actual physical presence. But throughout the time we've know each other spiritually, we've learned a lot about a LOT! lol. But when it comes to what we've learned about ourselves as it relates to each other, that is what validates our physical knowledge when we eventually meet physically in person. When that happens, I know that how I know you spiritually will effect how I know you physically. I don't want to be all infatuated and all up on each other. But I will hold you very close as if we are one. I must express physically, somehow, without going so far as to become uncomfortable, my love for you. Sure, I can live with loving your spirit forever, but I can't let my spirit bare false witness to yours. I'm owing up to my broken promises and self deceitfulness. I'm not like that anymore. Each time God has put you in or taken you out of my life, my life changed my life in some way because of you. In a good way when you're in it, bad when you're out. You see, now though in the past when you've been gone I've been attacked by evil spirits through other women,.. Your spirit has only done this because of the evil influences you have around you. I know because evil is everywhere and it WILL find you and corrupt your spirit. But what I also know is that God is everywhere and He is able to not only find you, but take you out as well and purify the corruption that has taken over. This fact of life is evidence in my own, I admit that I have been corrupted. Very very corrupted. To the point where I lived as if there was no God. Though I knew He does exist, I didn't care at all about Him,.. It's strange how God brings us up in the truth and you know it's the truth but just don't care, then makes us care. As for me that is. You know how corrupt I've been to an extent. It'd take lots of time together for me to be able to explain myself to you. The way I see my corruption, may not be the way you see it. But nevertheless, it is corruption. So maybe if I can be an example of the existence of Gods mercy as to bring me out of corruption and into salvation, perhaps you will believe He can do it for you too,..
I continue to pray that God sends His spirit to you somehow and makes His presence known to you. I can bare with never seeing your physical body, but if there comes a time when I can no longer see your spirit,.. I will be truly grieved.
I continue to pray that God sends His spirit to you somehow and makes His presence known to you. I can bare with never seeing your physical body, but if there comes a time when I can no longer see your spirit,.. I will be truly grieved.