SOME PRAYER FOR MY FAMILY - CRAZINESS

[asamanthinketh]

MY MOTHER, MORE SO MY STEPDAD THINK THAT WHEN I'M ON THE COMPUTER DOING WHAT I NEED TO DO TO HEAL, HELP MYSELF AND HELP OTHERS THAT I'M DISRESPECTING THEM AND DISHONORING THEM AND THEY THINK THAT I AM TRYING TO KILL THEM

THEY HAVE NO IDEA THE POWER THAT GOD GAVE THEM THAT IS STORED UP WITHIN THEM

AND THE REASON I AM SUFFERING IS BECAUSE OF THEIR IGNORANCE AND THEIR ARROGANCE AS HUMAN BEINGS

AND THE MOST SAD PART ABOUT LIVING WITH THESE PEOPLE IS THAT THEY MISINTERPRET MY LOVE AND MY RESPECT

THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND THE POWER OF THEIR MIND OR OF THEIR BODIES THAT GOD GAVE THEM
AND THEIR LACK OF UNDERSTANDING IS HARMING ME

THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW TO LIVE WITH YOUTH, THEY ARE OLDER YES, BUT NOT DEAD AND STILL CAPABLE OF A WHOLE LOT

BUT THEY ARE LAZY AND DON'T DO ANYTHING
AND THEN BLAME ALL THEIR MARRIAGE PROBLEMS AND HEALTH PROBLEMS ON ME

LIKE I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR IT
WHAT CRAZINESS IS THIS

AND ALL THEY DO IS SIT THERE AND JUDGE AND JUDGE AND JUDGE AND JUDGE AND JUDGE AND JUDGE UNTIL THEIR MINDS ARE WORE OUT WITH JUDGING

THEY KNOW I WANT TO BE MARRIED BUT THE REFUSE TO LIFT A HAND OR A KIND WORD OR SEE MY REAL NEED THAT I CANNOT LIVE WITH A MAN UNTIL I AM MARRIED, NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY WANT ME OUT OF THEIR HOUSE

I'M HERE NOW, IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE, BUT LORD HELP ME IF I SURVIVE BECAUSE MY FAITH WAS NEVER HERE, THEY DON'T KNOW ME, THEY AREN'T PREPARED TO DEAL WITH ME AND THE ENERGY AND TALENT WE HAVE AS YOUTH

IT CRACKS ME UP TO NO END

BECAUSE RALPH IS SITTING ON THE COUCH JUST WATCHING TV DOING NOTHING AS USUAL WHEN SOMEONE WHO IS SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE HIS DAUGHTER IS SUFFERING AND NEEDS THEIR HELP, BUT THEIR SO STUPID AND UNHUMBLE TO EVEN LISTEN TO THE HELP THAT I NEED THAT THEY JUST SIT THEIR AND WATCH ALL THE HORRIBLE, UNGODLY THINGS HAPPEN TO ME

 

[greatkraw]

where in the US are you?

 

[loeza89]

I have a similar problem with my Family but remember God puts these obstacles in our path to strengthen our faith at one point my parents tried to force me to choose between faith and family when they realized my choice would have been faith they eased up just give them time and pray for them i pray form mine all the time one day we will find the right words to change our families to follow the Lord like we do just ask for guidance and above all patience lol Family can be very difficult at times but we have the Lord on our side and our persistence will push through to them in time XD

 

[Pheonix]

Your parents sound similiar to my grandfather. He tries to manipulate the people around him to get them to do what he wants. His attitude about things is similar as well. The only difference is that he claims to be a crhistian and frowns on tv and anything he deems "ungodly", but he swears enough to make a sailor blush and he is the most despicable, unkind, selfish, and quite frankly good for nothing man I have ever met. He doesn't walk the way he talks.

As for you frustration, I know what you feel. It took me 7 years to find work. Toward the end my mother and I were always fighting, usually about stupid things. Both of us were frustrated and angry at the situation. Me because I didn't want to live off her coin but had to, and her because she still had to foot my bill. She wasn't employed near the end. I had just turned 26 when my first job came along. In her frustration she had a tendancy to be rather thoughtless and uncaring when we fought. I think we'd have killed each other had I not gotten my job and finally moved out. 7 years late. I know all about screaming at God, and grumbling about the situation I was in.

Frustration is probably more dangerous than anything else. It warps the mind and clouds our judgement. Things we would just shrug off under normal circumstances becomes unassailable mountains. The worst of it is it tends to feed off of itself. The more frustrated we are the more we become.

As I said in another of your posts, perhaps its time, no matter how painful it is, to get out. Find a new perspective. Talk to friends, and I mean real friends. There has to be someone you can confide in. When you find that person, don't just dismiss what they say if its counter to the way you are thinking. That's the new perspective. We become who we hang out with.

I hope this helps, and I'm not trying to beat you down, or be heartless. We do care that you are having problems. I just can't think of anything to say that can help you. My Ex was just as messed up by life and people as you are, and in the end nothing I did or said could help, mostly because she believed she didn't need help. It was everyone else who needed it. Please don't get into that line of thinking. We are trying to help even if we are floundering around like chickens without a head.