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Since September ive been taking an additional course to Performing Arts, AS Level Dance. I was supposed to have my exam tomorrow but throughout the year since September at various points ive ended up in tears because I think im a terrible dancer. On Sunday evening I just burst into tears, my solo choreography wasn't finished, I knew I'd get a bad grade and i just didnt feel ready. Yesterday morning i must have cried for two hours because i just wanted to leave the exam. I was about to go and tell my teacher that id decided to quit AS Dance and something inside my head just went "if you quit AS Dance I'll take dance away from you" and I know this sounds ridiculously stupid but I really couldnt work out whether it was God saying that or Satan telling me lies. I went to ring my mum and ask her but she didnt answer so by the time she got in touch with me I'd quit the exam and got changed. I asked her and she said it was Satan telling me lies but its just played in my head ever since. I really want this, I want to be in the West End or in a professional west end linked touring musical being a professional dancer, singer and actress but yesterday just really did make me feel confused. God wouldn't ever take away someones dream and threaten them would He?!