Life is so unpredictable I had a good job a brand new car all I needed next was minor repairs..like save a little more money. I was working on finding a good man but with God's help.. but just as that part of my life was improving my life crashed... literally crashed my car lost my job left ... numb. I try to understand what? I had a drive a goal to become stronger spiritually, emotionally, financially stable..then crashed shattered my dreams hopes... now I'm on my knees crying to God coz I initially wanted before anything a relationship with him.. kept asking to be stronger.. I had no idea my world country was going to be turned upside down... now I remain still
Recently my life took a similar turn. Everything seemed to be going great, no problems at all, then in a single moment it was like my entire life came crashing down. I was left thinking "why did this happen to me? I thought I was doing everything right? Isn't my life supposed to be easier as a Christian?"...etc. but the truth of it is, often times when we accept Christ into our life, when we serve God, our situations can become worse than they were before. We can find hope and comfort however in the fact that God uses these trials to test our faith, to create endurance within us. So rather than be angry, or upset, or question, I fully and totally surrendered myself to God, and what I thought at the time was the end of my world, I now see as one of the best things that's ever happened to me, and my faith is stronger than ever.
I don't know your specific situation, but I do know that our failures, our defeats, our dark valleys, they are not a sign that God has abandoned you, they are a sign of his presence. He is with you in the storm, as He was with Paul when he shipwrecked on Malta. I have found that it is in these dark times, that God's light shines brightest. Sometimes it takes our entire world falling apart for us to re-shift our focus, to reprioritize, to find our level ground once more. Again, I cannot say why this happened to you, I cannot say for what purpose, but I can say the scripture assures us there IS a purpose. And though you may not know that reason now, God assures us we will be better off for it in the end.
I hope this helped in some way, and I will pray for you!